The longest ride

Insecure

Pulling me closer to him, he makes sure I notice exactly what I do to him. But if only he actually knew how he was making me feel. I mean this man makes me feel insecure and confident at the same time. More confident than anything else, which I've never experienced in a relationship. Could be why I feel so damn insecure with him as well. I mean...he believes that he loves me. But who really is going to love someone that is a twenty-three year old virgin. I mean sure, Ive had plenty of practice with oral. Thats why I know what to do, and why I am good at it. I mean not having a gag reflex really helps with that. I must be really lost in my own thoughts cause all of a sudden I feel a pair of lips, pulling me back to reality. "Earth to Clary" Luke says. "I said your name a couple of times trying to get your attention. What has you so lost in thought?" I try to look away but Luke doesn't allow that, as he holds my small face in the palm of his hands. I let out a breathless sigh, "Luke there's something I have to tell you? I bite my lip, "But im afraid of how you're going to react." He then steps back from me letting out a sigh as well. "Please dont tell me that you're like secretly a lesbian or something? Which I wouldn't care, I mean more power to you. Not to mention, that would actually be very attractive if you were." He then looks up at me with a panicked look. "Please. Dont tell me that you have some kind of sexually transmitted disease or something." I cant help but laugh at his reaction. "No to both of those, for one. For two..." I look down and start to fiddle with my fingers. He was just about to step closer to me, when I look up and blurt it out. "Im still a virgin." Pausing for a second he looks at me and I think he realizes how panicked I am now. He cups my face into his hands, kissing me damn near breathlessly. While continuing to look at me, the next set of words that comes out of his mouth I was not expecting. "Ive got condoms in the draw." While looking at him, I realize what exactly it was that he said and im pretty sure all color drained from my face. "Baby do I look like a man who is going to give a shit if you are a virgin, much less two shits. Fuck I wouldnt care if you wanted to hold off having sex. From what you did in there." Points to the bathroom making me immediately blush mad. "Id be happy with just that, I mean that trick that you did with your tongue. Not to mention you not having a gag reflex, which Ive never experienced anyone who didnt have one. I mean that alone, was enough to send me over the edge, fuck just thinking about it makes me hard." I look down and see his soldier standing at attention. I look at it a little longer, realizing that I was so caught up in the moment. I didnt realize how blessed he was, I mean....im sure if my mouth can handle it. Other places should be able to, too.....right? He makes me look back up at him, as I notice those blue lust filled eyes. "Like what you see darlin, cause you got lost in thought again."