LOVE LIES

Chapter 3

"Yua, please I'm begging you where's your mom? I need to talk to her"
Paulit ulit na lang ganito ang tinanatanong saakin ni dad, asking where is mom? He's making fun of mom! Now I realize makikita mo ang halaga ng isang tao kapag wala na ito. Nasagad na ata ang pasensya ng ina ko that's why she chose to stay with tita at Caticlan. Hindi ko siya masisisi, he gave dad so many fucking chances but he choose to waste it.

"You have your ways dad, why don't you use it?"

"I want to see her Yua"
Matigas na sabi niya, alam ko na nagtitimpi siya saakin. I can feel his raging anger.

"See her? Why dad? Why do you want to see mom? To hurt her again?! Damn it daddy! Let her! Pagod na si mommy kakaintindi at kakabigay ng pagkakataon sayo! Ngayong wala siya dito nagkakaganyan ka?! Bakit hindi mo puntahan ang mga babae mo?!-"
I didn't finish what I'm saying when he slapped me not once but thrice. I can feel the smarting pain of his slap. I blankly stare at him, he looked shocked because of what he did. It's the first time na pinabuhatan ako ng kamay ng sarili kong ama.

"Happy now dad? Can I go upstairs? I'm tired"
He's trying to reach my hands ngunit umiiwas ako. I hold my tears and weakly smile at him.

"Y-yua i-im sorry"
Umiling lang ako at umakyat na at pumasok sa kwarto. My tears start to fell down. Ang sakit! Not because of his slap but because I feel that my situation with my Mom is the same. I can feel the pain she's suffering right now. Naawa ako sakanya, she loves dad but he waste the love given by mom. How can he?! I won't forgive him. Boys are all the same! Love? Damn love! It's a trash!

"Yua! I'm sorry, please forgive me"
Wala naman sigurong masama kung bibigyan ko siya ng isa pang pagkakataon diba?

"I forgive you"

I smiled bitterly reminiscing those memories break my heart. Those stupidity of mine still haunting me. Bakit ko nga ba siya binibigyan ng paulit-ulit na chance? Because I love him so much, that I became blind and realize na wala na akong pagmamahal na itinira sa sarili ko.

My phone suddenly ring, linapitan ko itonat sinagot ang tumatawag, I didn't bother to take a glance to the caller.

"Hello?"-ako

"Ano ba yan?! Nakalimutan mo kaagad ang napakagwapo kong boses?"
It's Casper, bago kami maghiwalay kahapon sa coffee shop he asked for my number and I gave it to him.

"Bakit ka tumawag?"

"Wala lang, I'm bored, let's have fun! My treat"
Not bad, gusto ko din I divert ang attention ko, I don't want to be stuck here in my room. Since it's Saturday today, wala naman pasok.

"Okay"

"Dun kita sa coffee shop aantayin, take care Yua! See you later"

I ended the call and start to prepare.

I saw him waiting outside the coffee shop, nakasandal siya sa kotse niya na para bang isang modelo, the girls inside the coffee shop giggled and pointing at him, this guy is like a chic magnet. Lumapit na ako sakanya, pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto, he's gentleman pala.

Habang nasa byahe daldal lang siya ng daldal about his previous school. Sikat daw siya dun, and he's a chic magnet, tama nga ako. Pero wala siyang girlfriend, NGSB nga daw siya. Sabi niya hindi pa kasi niya nakikita ang tamang babae para sakanya.

"I will wait for her when the right time comes, and when I finally found  her siguraduhin ko na siya na ang ihaharap ko sa altar"

Hindi ko alam kung papaniwalaan ko ang sinasabi Niya, boys are all the same pero bakit nagbabago na ata ang paniniwala ko? Why? Is it because of him?

Pagkadating namin sa mall dumiretso kagad kami sa World of Fun siya ang bumili ng tokens libre Niya daw this time dahil siya ang nag aya.

I didn't expect that in a short span of time I became close to him. Kahapon lang kami nagkakilala pero parang close na close na kaming dalawa. Nakakatawang isipin. I enjoy my day with him.

Casper is fun to be with, he's like an easy go luck guy, pero sa buhay napakaseryoso niya yan ang traits na napansin ko sakaniya. He's different, it's more like he's a treasure you need to take care of.

His eyes is full of joy that I envy, how can I be happy like him? Parang wala siyang problemang pinagdadaanan.

"Talo na naman kita!"
Imbes na mainis natutuwa pa ako, pero hindi ko yun ipinakita sakaniya, kunwari napipikon na ako.

"Ayoko na! I can't beat you! You're MVP!"
Kanina pa ako hindi nakakashoot habang siya sunod sunod.

After playing at WOF kumain kami sa Jollibee his favorite fast food chain. Ang dami niyang inorder na fries at sinasawsaw sa sundae. Ang weird kung iisipin pero sinubukan ko din isawsaw at hindi ko akalain na masarap pala!

We watch movies right after our dinner. Sa sandaling kasama ko si Casper nakalimutan ko ang problema ko. I'm happy yet scared, scared because I can't give my full trust to him.

"Nag enjoy ka ba?"
Tanong niya saakin. We're on our way home, ihahatid niya raw ako. Sa una I was hesitant dahil malalayo pa siya subdivision nila kung ihahatid niya pa ako.

"Sobra, thank you so much"

"Tatapatin kita Yua, the first time I laid my eyes on you I can feel your sadness, that's why here I am making you happy, wag kang magalala wala akong hinihinging kapalit, seeing you smile is more than enough"
I don't know what to say, pakiramdam ko naubusan ako ng salita. I felt awkward, he look at me and smile. Why is he doing this? Hindi nga niya ako kilala ng sobra but he wants to make me happy and ease  my pain.

"Alam ko na ang weird ng dating sayo, pero ito lang kasi ang gusto kong gawin, I don't want to see someone who is in pain, just let me help you Yua, like what I have said hindi ako hihingi ng kahit na anong kapalit, hayaan mo lang ako na tulungan ka"

May alam ba siya sa nangyayari saakin? Should I stay away from him? Or let him help me? Gosh! I don't know! I'm speechless. You're driving me crazy Casper.