The letters i wrote to the love of my life (hart big fan-fic)

Overwhelming

Hannah POV

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Its been about 7 years since i told grace im gay. We both finished college and moved in with each other. Its been 2 months since we became room mates. This moving in with each other thing has been hard on me. My feelings for Grace have grown and grown and at this point i think im in love with her. Ive written letters after letter everynight but. Ive filled up journal after journal. i even bought a chest where i keep all my past journals and love letters to Grace.The stress of her finding the letters is overwhelming. Even though i never mentioned her name just in case.

"Haannnnaahh!" Grace yelled. i ran up from my desk in my room to Grace in the living room. And here i thought that she was in danger.

"What did you want dude?" i said trying to clam myself down from that close heart attack i was about to have.

"I wanted to ask you if you wanted to order food or go out to eat?"

"Umm, i rather do take out instead of going out, im too tired too." i said while scratch the back of my head.

"Ok, do you want chinese food or pizza?"

"What ever you want im fine with." I smiled and walked back to my room. i needed to finish my entry in my journal.

Grace POV

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I wonder whats wrong with hannah. But im hungry so i called for chinese food and i ordered Hannahs favorite food from the chinese place we both love. I was really worries about Hannah she never goes out of her room only to shoot MDK and eat. The got here and i knocked on hannahs door and walked in and saw her quickly hid a paper inside her journal and was scared that i walked in.

"Han, i ordered chinese food and its in the kitchen come and eat."

"okay ill be out in a second,"

"ok hurry or it will get cold." I said as i walked out of the room. Ive known that Hannah writes in her journal but what was the lettter she was writting. Hannah came out of her room finnaly and was about to lift her plate and bring it in her room when i stoped her and said to sit and have dinner at the table. She sat and we ate in silence. I broke it by saying

"Whats wrong Hannah, you havent been out of your room in weeks?" she stared at her food and finally said something.

"Nothing ive just been thinking alot lately." she said still looking at her food she hasnt even looked at me since she sat down.

"Did i do something to make you upset?" i say with a frown on my face. She looks up at me finally.

"No no you could never do anything that would upset me." she said and toched my hand then let go.

"ok, do you mind me asking what were you writting on that piece of paper in your room when i walked in?" i said with a worried look. Hannah hesitated answering me back.

"Umm....its a.....its a letter." she said.

"A letter about what and who was it for?" i said not trying to push her to tell me.

"Uhhh...." she started to shake her leg i knew that she didnt want to tell me.

"its a letter im writting to my sister about how i miss her and wish we can hang out soon." She said after a while and i of course knew she was lying.

 "Cool." i said following in her lie. I am determined to find out what the letter is about and to who its suppose to be to.

Later that night 

"Hannah can you please sit on the couch with me so we can talk?" i yelled since she was in her room, AGAIN. She walks out and sits next to me.

"Yeah dude what do want to talk to me about?" she said smiling. Gosh i love when she smiles at me. WTF am i thinking Hannahs my best friend. Ive been having these thoughts alot latley and needed to stop. But i stared into Hannahs blue eyes and i felt myself fall into her eyes more and more and i snaped myself out of it and finally said

"I wanted to know if you had any meetings comeing up?" i said making a plan to find the letter.

"yeah, i have one every friday for the next 3 months." she said. i smiled and so did she. We sat there laughing the rest of the night and just talking about old memories.

"its getting late im going to bed" i told Hannah. 

"yeah me too, goodnight Smellbig"

"Night Farto" both said smilling and laughing back to our rooms. I couldnt stop thinking of Hannah and how i think i might like her more than a friend. But im not gay or am i? I need a good night sllep and i figure everything out in the morning.I fell asleep with a smile on my face thinking about hannah. Gosh i cant stop  thinking of her.

Hannnah POV

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I layed in my bed thinking of every perfect thing about Grace and started to write even more love leters about her . When i was tired enough to stop i took the 5 letters i wrote today and pulled my chest under my bed. I opened it and put the letters on top of the rest of the letters and went to bed staring at the ceiling. I cant take keeping my feelling for Grace a secret anymoe but i ant tell her it will ruin our friendship. Ill just figure everything later.

"i love Grace Helbig" I whispered to myself and fell fast asleep with the thought of Grace even though i knew she would never love me.