The Faults In Us

Brick Walls

This chapter is dedicated to the best roommate ever, thanks roxs, youre my favorite

Enjoy~

I had been staring at the glowing phone screen for 15 minutes now. Two hours after attacking Ben he had tucked me into bed and surrounded me with pillows and chocolate, but only after typing in Gavin's number and leaving an empty space for me to fill. Apparently it will be good for me to "connect with the hottie that was taking my heart."

Bens words, not mine.

So here I am, at 1:30AM on a Thursday curled up in my pillows with my finger hovering over the fear casting send button. This was a true devil vs. angel moment. With one on each other shoulder I could hear it now. The red girl with horns sticking out screaming to ignore the world and hate everyone forever, and to make all of their lives a living hell. While the angel is white calmly says to try a friendship because everyone needs friends when life sucks.

Huffing to myself, I slumped into the sheets more and hit send while closing my eyes and locking my phone at the same time.

I did not want to see the mess I just created.

To: Not Nick Jonas my real almost Husband

Families are stupid. Can I go live in a cave alone? With a Drake filled ipod of course.

It feels like there is a bass drum playing inside of my heart. Maybe this is what a heart attack feels like. Looking at the time I rubbed my forehead, I had class in 5 hours. Wonderful.

"Not even a cute boy like him will be up right now." I muttered. "Dang it, I said it again! Argh. Boys are stupid and he's not that cute. That's it, I'm becoming a nun. " I declared to myself before rolling over and shoving my phone under my pillow after hearing a swoosh sending sound. "Great, now I'm sleeping texting someone. Argh."

And with that I closed my eyes and drifted off into a land where no one was forced to marriage anyone, no matter how good their eyes looked.

What felt like only 5 minutes I slowly awake to the feeling of weights crawling up my legs.

"You both have two seconds to get out of my room before I call the cookie monster and tell him where all of your homemade cookies are that mom made." I mumbled half asleep.

Hearing the thuds of little running feet and after gaining freedom from the little children's weight, I roll over to pull my phone out from under my pillow.

From: Not Nick Jonas my real almost Husband

If you move into a cave I have to come too you realize? Me and Drake, promise. Oh, and you can remain me just how cute I am at 2AM everyday if you want Ms. Nun.

With my mouth hanging up like a fish out of water I scroll up, only to see I sent a voice message to Gavin last night along with the message I knew I sent.

Lovely, just lovely. I thought. His ego is enough to fill the Grand Canyon, just like his brothers.

Throwing my phone into the covers I rolled myself to my feet and waddled my way to the shower hoping it would wake me up and this nightmare would be over already.

It was an hour later when I pulled my sweet little rig into the James High parking lot. Letting my head slip down unto the steering wheel I turned the key to the car off and let silence take over.

My thoughts were spinning, everything had hit like the titanic hit the iceberg once I locked myself in my car. I had to pull into an empty parking lot on the way for the angry tears where blurring the streetlights in my eyes. I still couldn't believe it, less than 24 hours ago I was taking Clary out for ice cream because we both got into a fight with.. oh no

I had completely forgotten. Before I could yell at myself a knock came on my car window, making my heart skip a beat and my head snap up

Looking to my left my eyes grew, there stood AJ, red rimmed eyes and a trembling bottom lips. I gave her a small frown and quickly grabbed my bag tightly while opening the door and sliding into her arms.

"I'm sorry, I was a Barbie." We said in unison.

Holding her tightly I let a sobby giggle out while agreeing, "We both were, but chocolate and a movie night will make it all better."

Nodding her head she pulled away looking me in the eyes, "Best friend movie night, yours, Friday, I'll buy the pizza."

Laughing again we let go to lean against my jeep. Small talk grew between us until silence took over. Leaning my head back I whispered "How mad is Alex?"

Aj, being the best friend she is, threw it at me. "He came home drunk and whining, but this morning he was calling his ex, so I think you're in the clear."

Letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding I blew out, "At least that's one less guy I have to deal with."

Before she could question my statement the school bell had rang and we started our walk across the parking lot. Coming to the splitting hallway we mumbled a good bye and she shot me a confused look until I turned and made my way to the class from hell: Math.

I made my way to the classroom door and took a deep breath, "Come in Ms. Rogers, no deep breaths are going to help you." Mrs. Chan snapped.

Rolling my eyes I stumbled in, making my way to a seat closet to the back and as far as way as possible from Mrs. Chan. How she was married Ill never understand, surely her garlic breath would scare any man away. Slipping into my seat I dropped my bag next to my feet and throwing my head back I let out a sigh.

"Eli, don't sound so excited to see me."
"You've got to be kidding me.." I mumbled snapping my head up only to look into the devils eyes. And no, not Mrs. Chan's. "Why are you here Dean?"

A bold chuckle left his lips leaving a smirk in its path as he moved closer to sit in front of me, "We both knows it Sean, considering how many times I've made you scream it..."

Shivering in disgust I shrink lower into my desk, hoping it would shallow me whole as my heart started to pound.

"Did you punch her or does her just hate you and math that much?

My head snapped to the voice, my eyes flowing over him. Gavin.

"He didn't punch you right?" He asked as he slipped into the seat next to me, looking into my eyes.
"What are you doing here?" I demanded in a hush whisper.

Rubbing the back of his neck his eyes wandered everywhere avoiding mine. "Im guessing she didn't tell you.."
"Tell me what.." I ground out.
"Well you se-.."
"Damn, we transferred in. Its not that hard, something about making it easier for you two to look like a happy couple or something. Grow some balls and just tell her Gav." Sean scoffed before turning back around.

My eyes shot back to Gavin as I watched his face go to stone. I guess I'm not that only one who doesn't like his brother. I though to myself.

"Please tell me he's lying.." I begged Gavin.
"Id say sorry but I cant.. It was your moms idea." He snapped back.

My heart stopped and in the moment I realize. Gavin wasn't my friend. He wasn't anything but the guy that would be stuck with me. I was taking everything away from him and there was nothing I could do about it. He didn't care, he never would, the only emotion he would ever feel for me was hate. I was hated.

My mind was spinning again and tears were forming. Although I had a brick wall build around me, yet he was breaking it already and I could not have that.

I stood quickly on my shaky legs stopping Mrs. Chan mid 'I hate you all, listen in my class' speech, making her glares turn to me. "Yes Ms. Rogers, could you sit back down?"
"Not today." I mumbled, gather my bag and booking it out of there.

I tripped down the isle, and out the door, running down the hall and taking a left into the old girls locker room. Closing the door I drowned out the voice of Ms. Chan calling me back and Sean's laugh after he noticed my tears. Gavin said nothing, because Gavin, was not, and never will be for me.