silence

// darkness

I sat alone in the darkness running my finger tips over the scars on my left wrist. I felt a urge run through me, i wanted to cut again. I brushed the thought away and decided to take a shower. I stripped out of my fuzzy pyjamas and turned on the shower. I looked at my naked body in the mirror and sighed.

My boobs are too small and my stomache is too big. My butt is too big and my face is too round. I sighed and stepped into the large shower. My skin turned red as the stream of hot water hit it and i let out a breath. The hot water running over my naked body felt amazing. I grabbed my sponge and squirted some of my coconut scented body wash onto it. I rubbed it all over my body and it left a sudsy resedue on my tan skin. I let the water wash away the soap and grabbed my razor. I stared at the blades and then my scarred wrist.

I ignored my desire and started to shave my legs and underarms. I stood under the water and felt my body relax. I ran my hands through my blue and black hair and over my face. I grabbed my coconut scented shampoo and scrubbed my scalp. I washed the shampoo out and stood under the steady stream of water. I squirted conditioner into the palm of my hand and ran it through my hair. I let the water wash the conditioner out of my hair and turned off the water.

I opened the glass door and stepped out of the shower and wrapped my large, white, fluffy towel around my body. I grabbed a smaller one and started drying my hair with it. I wiped the steam off the mirror and stared at my caramel coloured eyes. I put my wet hair into a messy bun and walked into my closet. I grabbed a sports bra and put it on with a pair of baggy booty shorts.

I grabbed my mac laptop and sat on my bed. I opened up Google Chrome and went on Netflix. I turned on my favourite anime, death note and almost gagged when I noticed it was dubbed. I quickly changed it to subtitles and made myself a burrito in my blankets.

As much as I didn't want to think about it I know that I need to tell my family about me. I can't live pretending to be someone I'm not and hopefully they'll be understanding. I'm just scared cause as much as I hate to admit it my parents are very...

Cold.

They won't understand, but I need to tell them.

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Hiya people!

So this is the first chapter of silence and I really hope you like it. It's kinda rough right now but me and Zara really like the idea. Just wait there's more to come!

XoXo
-Brooke