Chapter 20
"Wh-what do you mean you left Will?" I asked, grabbing two glasses out of the cabinet and filling them with water. "What happened?"
"I-I can't be with him anymore." She stuttered, walking over to the couch to lay Henry down. "I can't keep living this lie."
"What lie? JJ what is going on?" I asked, deeply concerned.
"Earlier, when you were talking about soulmates, I realized that I can't keep lying to myself, to Will, to everyone." She said before taking a giant sip of water. "I love Will, I do. But not in the same way that he loves me. I was more in love with the idea of this perfect family that I completely disregarded my own feelings."
"JJ, I'm going to be sick if you keep talking in circles. What is going on?"
"I'm gay!" She finally blurted, her entire body relaxing after the revelation.
"Well yeah, I'd see why you wouldn't want to stay with Will then." I joked, trying to clear some of the tension in the air. I started thinking back to earlier at my moms house when she was about to tell me something before Penelope burst into the room, thinking back to the way that Emily acted when we were saying what we were grateful for, how neither of them would make eye contact or conversation with each other. I started putting all of the pieces of the puzzle together.
"And I thought that maybe I was bisexal and that I could just stick it out with Will, you know for Henry, but-"
"But that wouldn't be fair for either you or Emily." I finished for her.
"How did you- I never said it was Emily."
"You didn't have to tell me, it's my job to notice these things." I said, before enveloping her in a hug.
"Oh my God Nat, you have no idea how long I've been wanting to get this off my chest."She said pulling away from the hug and wiping her eyes.
"So what's going to happen now?" I asked, pulling out one of my bar stools and taking a seat. "I mean, have you talked to Emily?"
"No not yet," she said, following my lead in taking a seat. "Me and Will got into a huge argument about how I'm just confused about my feelings because I spend way too much time at work and that I'm confusing feelings of love with feelings of protection and blah blah blah. So I grabbed a bag of my stuff and Henry's and came straight over here."
"I hate men like that," I sighed. "No offence."
"Yeah, none taken." She laughed.
There was a key sound in the door before it opened, Spencer walking through, looking at the two of us.
"Uh, hi JJ." he said, closing the door and locking it. "Everything okay?"
"Yeah, everything's okay Spencer." She smiled weakly, taking a sip of her water.
"JJ and Henry are going to be staying here for a few days." I added.
"Why? What happened?" Spencer asked, super concerned for his best friend and godson.
She took a deep breath before explaining the whole thing over again, this time with more confidence in her voice.
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JJ and Henry's stay went from being a couple days long, to being a couple of weeks. She's basically just moved in at this point, but I don't mind. JJ has become like a sister to me, and up until my mom and Patricia got married, I never had any siblings, so it was nice.
Plus I've been able to get practice in with Henry. I mean, I babysat to pay my bills through college, but never would I stay long enough to see them through the night, not that the one year old is getting up much at night. And if it ever gets to be too much, Me and Spencer will just go stay down the hall at his apartment. I am just about ready to just let JJ have the place, but I still think it would be weird to live full time with Spencer. Like sure, I'm having his kids, but I've only known the man for a year and that just seems like too soon to move in together to me.
