She's all smiles while answering all the question being ask for her. She created a story where she eradicate her past trauma experience. She also coordinates her story to Aldrich side, she's all aware of what fabricated write up about them.
"Well, since you are now in the Philippines I'm sure nakarating sa'yo ang balitang pagkakamabutihan ng iyong long time boyfriend at ni Valerie. What can you say about it?" lahat ng nasa studio na kanina lang ay nagtatawanan at nakangiti ay biglang napalitan ng gulat sa tanong ng TV talk show host na si Luigi Manzano.
She also froze at what he asks but she remains her sweet smile to the camera. She was aware of what's happening between Aldrich and Valerie but she doesn't know if it's true or not. Isa rin yan sa mga issue na nagpa-uwi sakanya ng bansa.
She wanted to call it quits sa relasyon nila ng binata para malaya na itong mailathala kung girlfriend niya ang dalaga.
"Well, I guess the rumors are not true. You see, my boyfriend pick me up at the airport. Alam naman natin ang buhay artista. Nakasama mo lang sa isang project, they automatically na nagkahulugan ng loob. I trust him naman." she safely say. What happened to them yesterday night is the proof of it. Beside, it's not Aldrich character to jump one bed to another.
"You seem very sure about your relationship to him. It's been 11 years since the two of you got together and within that year, you were at 8 years long distance relationship with him. Are you two planning to settle down?" Luigi ask. Kung tatanungin siya eight years ago about it, probably she would say yes, but now she doesn't think about it anymore.
She needed to let go of him. She needed to heal completely at alam niyang isa ang binata sa dapat niyang pakawalan to properly do it.
"Well, I'm really not rushing everything and we really hasn't talked about it. So, I guess no wedding bells gonna happen soon." she unsurely answer.
And when the time that her commitments were done, she's already dead tired. It's already 5 am, she has already done two talk shows and 1 pictorial for Mega's issue next month. Aldrich has been reaching out to her all day that she has to turn off her phone.
She turn on her phone and got shock at the numbers of missed calls and messages coming from him.
"SHIT!" she lowly curse at the sudden rings on her phone.
"Where are you right now?" Aldrich ask.
"How do you get my number?" pagbalik tanong niya kahit naman alam niya na madali lang makuha ng binata ang numero niya sa lawak ba naman ng koneksiyon nito.
"Your brother gives it to me. Answer me, where are you." may talim na ang huling tanong nito sakanya.
"I'm tired. I'm going home." pagsuko na sagot niya dito. Binaba na ng binata ang telepono kaya naman ay natulog na lang siya buong biyahe. Her driver woke her up when they arrive at her Condo building.
She's about to go on the private elevator nang makita niya ang G Wagon ni Aldrich at prenteng nakasandal ito rito. Humakbang na ito palapit sakanya ng magsalubong ang kanilang mga mata and before she could press the elevator button nakalapit na ang binata.
"Which floor?" he calmly ask her. She shook her head as she's trying to wake herself up. She press the 20th floor nang mapansin niyang wala namang pinindot ito na floor button.
"You? Which floor are you going?" tinatamad niyang tanong.
"Are you stupid?" balik tanong niya saken habang tumtaas pa ang sulok ng labi nito.
Hindi na lang niyapinansin ang binata.
"How's your day?" Aldrich ask. Tinignan niya ang binata na prenteng nakasandal sa kanang bahagi ng elevator.
"It's tiring but I enjoy the fans company. They are the best, who would have thought that they will be waiting patiently on my return." masayang sabi niya rito ngunit bigla siyang napasimangot ng makitang nawala ang pilyong ngiti nito.
"Probably just like me, they thought that you wouldn't care at all if someone is waiting for your return." he seriously and coldly said to her. Napa-iwas siya ng tingin sa binata. She knows what he mean. The reality of the aftermath of what she did will be surely her biggest shadow.
"I would understand if they will leave me. For someone like me who doesn't give a proper goodbye to them, I would gladly understand if they would lose interest in me because I know once na malaman nila ang dahilan ng pag-alis ko iiwan din naman nila ko." she sadly say. Hindi niya alam kung ang topic ay tungkol pa rin sa mga fans niya.
"Gusto mong malaman kung mananatili sila sa tabi mo? Then fucking tell them the truth, they deserve it after all. Magpaliwanag ka kesa mag-assume agad. What are you trying to hide? Who the hell are you trying to protect?" he angrily said to her. Ni hindi niya namalayan na nasa sulok na pala sila ng elevator at na-corner na siya ng binata.
"Myself. I'm trying to protect myself." she lower her head as she said those words. She's really trying to protect herself.
It takes her five long years para makatulog ng maayos na hindi nagta-take ng sleeping pills and she knows sa oras na isiwalat niya ang buong natotohanan ay babalik siya sa dating siya at ayaw na niya maramdaman yun. Kung kahapon ay handa siayng aminin sa binata ang lahat pero naduwag siya ng makita itong masaya at tumatawa na siya ang dahilan. She doesn't want to take it away. She doesn't want that smile, naughtiness and care to be given to someone else.
She's selfish, but her heart doesn't want him to be with someone else kahit gaano niya pa i-deny. Yung ngiti niya kanina nang makita siya, she doesn't want that to be given to someone. Parang may pumipiga sa puso niya ng ma-isip kung ganun din ba ngumiti ito kung si Valerie ang nakita. The thoughts alone can give her a heart attack.
The elevator opens at dali-dali siyang naglakad palabas nito upang hindi tuluyang mahulog ang kanyang mga luha.
While walking in the corridor, she still thinking kung handa ba siyang makita ang binata na may kasamang iba at hindi siya.
She inserted her finger print to her smart door handle, papasok na siya ng kanyang condo nang biglang pumasok ang binata.
"LET'S FUCKING TALK!" he shouted and loudly exhale, trying to calm down.
"Let's cut the chase. If you're trying to protect yourself, I'AM ALSO! I'm trying to protect myself from another heartache. LET'S FUCKING TALK AND END IT! Make me hate you so I have the reason to let go. It's hard to let go when I only have good memories with you. MAKE ME HATE YOU so that I know I deserve better. MAKE ME HATE YOU so that I won't be like a lost dog na laging naghahanap sa'yo. MAKE ME HATE YOU so that I won't be longing for your kiss and touch. MAKE ME HATE YOU SO THIS HEART WON'T BEAT FOR YOU!" he said to me as emotions rendered on his eyes. She saw hate, lost, confusions and HURT.
BINABASA MO ANG
Ravishment
RomanceHanna Del Mundo was drugged and raped. Because of the trauma, she was forced to leave the showbiz business. Leaving everything kahit ang pinamamahal niayng nobyo na si Aldrich Montecillo. Eight years later she return to give Aldrich the explanation...
