One Last Time

Author's Notes

I really don't know how to start this. Maybe no one will care to read this but I will write my thoughts about this story.

It started as a silly idea, with the question that if Levi were to love someone, how would that person be?

And slowly, it developed into something bigger and after more than 200,000 words and months of writings, it has finally reached an end.

Levi is a character that I love deeply and my only hope is that at least, at some point in his life he was content and happy. This story was written as a comfort story for me, that even if something bad were to happen to Levi at the end, at least I could go back to my world and read this with the hope that at least in past or in another universe Levi was happy.

You don't need love to be happy, I hope that I was able to express that thoroughly. But I do think you need people you can rely on, friends, a family who you can be yourself with. 

I think we can find love in everything, on the simplest of things. On a person, on a friend, on a family, a hobby, a food, a place. Maybe we can't have all of that, at some point there can be separation but that doesn't mean that love is over.

I think love can transcend anything, even labels. And that's what I wanted to portray with Maria's and Levi's relationship.

Yes, I am a hopeless romantic. I like to believe that even in the darkest of times, on the cruelest of moments, love still reminds. It's unrealistic, but I don't think there's nothing wrong in believing in those kinds of things.

I can't really express with words Levi and Maria's relationship. I wanted to leave that to the interpretation of the reader.

That's why the ending is vague but opens up to possibilities.

Are Maria and Levi together now? Are they not? Or they just content by loving each other without having to fully express it? Will they be together later on when things get better?

That's up to the reader to decide.

So, why One Last Time?

I do feel like life is made up of moments. Moments of happiness, suffering, pain, ecstasy, joy. These moments we can only live them once. Once in a lifetime, so we should appreciate these moments. No matter how good or bad they are.

You only get one last time. One last time of pain, one last time of love, one last time of happiness.

And hopefully, I have shown the beauty and pain of life through this story. I hope I have shown that life can be terrible, yes but it's the small moments of happiness we have that count. We have to feel pain in order to feel happiness.

So even in sad moments, we should appreciate them too because it's only one time. Only one last time you have to experience life and its sad and happy parts.

I don't know. I know this a fanfiction and I know that I may be taking this story too seriously. But after more than 200,000 words and a lot of thoughts about the characters, I hope that I was able to transmit my feelings to my readers.

This is by far the longest story I have written and also, the one that has more deep meaning.

I put a lot of thought into my characters and I hope that reflects on the story.

Originally, as I first drafted this story, I thought of making this a Levi X Reader story. And honestly, I still think that if this was a Levi X Reader story, this would have gotten more comments, likes, and views.

But as I thought of this other questions popped into my mind.

How can I make this a Levi X Reader story while maintaining the same emotional connection?