Lilly

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Lilly sat in the window seat in the living room of the BlackBourne home feet tucked under her just staring out the window to the backyard not really looking at anything she was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even hear anyone calling her name

It wasn't until Nathan placed his hand on her shoulder that she came back to the reality of the room
" Sorry " she says softly
" it's Okay Lilly you want anything to eat or drink the guys will be here in an hour or so they are following up on a lead " Nathan asked her
" No I'm fine "
"Lilly you need to eat it's now 4 in the afternoon and I know you haven't eaten lunch " Sean said as he came into view
" I'm not hungry Sean " Lilly tells him

Sean comes over to Lilly sits down next to her places his hand on her leg
Lilly looks at his hand then up to his face
" What I am about to say will either angry you or maybe motivate you either way it will cause you to feel and that's what you need to do Lilly it's not good to hold things in it maybe because of the abuse it's become a coping mechanism to shut down that's to be expected but Lilly you can't keep doing that it's not healthy for you because one day your going to explode on someone and the results will be devastating I suggest you fight it out as in hit a punching bag while yelling at it that worked for Brandon and Gabriel when they needed to work on some of their issues you can go downstairs to the gym and do it by yourself or one of us can be In there what ever you say will stay in there " Sean said to her

Lilly didn't say anything she didn't know if she was mad or just numb from everything
She wanted to feel but at what cost

Getting up from her spot
" Lilly" Sang says
"Dont worry Dollcakes I'm fine I just need air I'll be out back for a few minutes " Lilly tells  Sang as she moved by her towards the back door then out into the fresh Carolina Air .

Lilly wondered around the property she knew she was safe from anyone bothering her well except that she did have Luke following her but he was keeping a good distance back from her as she went through the path towards the woods taking the well worn path to the treehouse that they built for Sang and Luke since both love to climb trees they figured this would be a safer option

Climbing the latter up to the treehouse the view was pretty darn nice it was high enough to see the River that flowed along the back of the property
Sitting on the floor in the middle with her knees to her chest head buried in them she breaths in and out
Relaxing herself this was one of the techniques that Raven had taught her , He found her one night having a panic attack he never asked why or what caused it he told her she would tell when ready that despite the things she tells herself that feeling is bad not feeling is even worse.

Lifting her head when she hear the crack of the floorboards she saw Luke sitting across from her he looked at her raising his eyebrow at the sound
He moved over to the doorway looking down the latter then moved back to his spot
" Must have been a squirrel nothing is down there "

Nodding she drops her head back down into her knees .

" Lilly do you want to talk about it " Luke asked his voice was firm but soft
Looking up at him she saw the concern in his eyes
" To be honest I don't know on one hand I do on the other I don't know if I can handle letting it out Holding it hostage is like not having to admit that it happen that My Father from the time I was 6 started to molested me at first it was little touches here and there especially when he would give me a bath but then it increased one night he gave me a bath as he was washing me he spread my lips apart and shoved a finger inside me I screamed it hurt so bad he backhanded me so hard my head bounced off the wall I don't remember much of that night then when I was 9 he came home drunk he wanted me to fix him food so I started to fix him a sandwich but I wasn't going fast enough for him he hit me with his fist upside the back of my head then proceeded to beat me so bad I had to stay home from school for a week he told the school I had come down with the flu in May " Lilly tells him she wipes the tears from her cheeks that she didn't even know where falling

"Then when I started puberty at 14 was when he got more aggressive in the touching until the night he pulled me down those stairs to the dungeon from hell I can remember his hands on me then waking up naked tied to beam from the ceiling my arms were killing me he had made it so I would have to stand on my toes to give my arms a rest he left me like that for three days until he sobered up then he cut me down told me shower and get to school which I didn't have school since it was summer break but I left him for a month or two living down the road in abandoned cottage he found me burned down the cottage then he raped me again he left to go get beer but got arrest for drunk driving and public intoxication he was sentenced to six months I worked around the neighborhood to get enough money to leave but when I found out I was pregnant that came to end I was six months pregnant when he got released " Lilly said

A hand touched her hands she looked up to see Harry , Jack , Liam , Henry along with Luke watching her
The hand belonged to Kayli
" Keep letting it out" Kayli says holding Lilly's hand tightly in hers

" He um came back to the house he busted one of the basement windows to get in without anyone noticing then waited until I came home when I went into the kitchen he came out from behind the door that lead to the laundry area put his hand over my mouth so I couldn't scream told me that if I tried anything he would kill me then he made me walk to the basement door then down the steps he had nailed a 2x4 to the wall hung cuffs on it he pushed me to it I didn't want to turn around because then he would hand noticed the baby bump, but he forced me to by pulling my hair when I did turn around his eyes went to my chest which had gotten bigger then dropped to my bump his eyes went black then he said that he would take care of the issue he hung me up on the wall then came back a few hours later injected me with something that started contractions I was in labor for 28 hours when I pushed the baby out he grabbed it held it up for me to see then ...... twisted it's neck "

Lilly lost it her tears came and there was no way to stop them
She felt being lifted up into someone's arms
" I will personally kill him he will beg for death for what he did to you Beauty "
Turning to face him
" Henry "
" Yes Beauty it's me just cry or what ever you need to do I'll hold you forever protect you give you the moon and stars Beauty We will get through this and you will grow even stronger than you already have " Henry says stroking her back

" Will I " Lilly questions

" Yes you will Piccolo You will " Harry says moving next to Henry placing his hand over Henry's on Lilly's back
" He's right Doodlebug you will it will take time but I have all the faith in the world you will " Jack said coming over and sitting on Henry's legs putting his legs around Lilly he leans forward placing his hand on top of Harry's and Henry's hand .

Liam looked over at his loves with Lilly who he's trying to keep from falling for but it's hard when the men he loves are already in love with her Can he love again or will he have to step back and away from the team to give them the happiness they deserve.

Henry looks over at Liam who he knows is battling his demon Ciara that bitch did a number on him and if he ever finds her he will put a bullet in her head without blinking.
He watches Liam for a moment more before Liam moves over to them sits down beside Henry placed his hand over all of theirs but doesn't say anything

Lilly shifted to see Liam sitting beside Henry
" Liam " Lilly says
" Yes Babygirl "
" I know I'm not high on your friends list but I am a good listener ask Kayli or Sang heck even Owen the suite himself has talk to me before about things that he needed another point of view well a female one that he could trust I can tell someone hurt you and if and when I find out I'll make them wish they never did because I protect my friends even if they don't want it " Lilly said

Henry chuckled under her which made her turn to him
" Stop turning this around to get out of letting us help you " He said with a smirk

Kayli laughed " She does that all the time but this time we aren't going to let you , Luke how about you and I head back to the house and leave them alone for a little while "

" Yeah I'm missing my cupcake I need some sugar " Luke said with a grin