Phone call with jah:
"So.. I wanna know more about you.. tell me something??" He asks me. "Well I'm for Atlanta Georgia, my father was never in my life that much. Um I come for a family that loves drama" me and him laugh.. "more tell me more" he says " ok well I like animals. I Diagnosed with depression I have a little bipolar in me.. I model and I'm a bad bitch" we laugh after I said that "tell me about you jah" I say "ok well um... I'm a rappers mom was a teen when she had me so she wasn't really in my life.. I also have depression.. my dad was in jail so I never really saw him. So I had to go house to house from different family members and friends.. so now that i never really had a woman in my life I turn to other females for love.." he said with a tear falling down I'm his face "don't cry seh" I say "I-I know I just met you but can you come over please" he asks "uh sure just give me an hour ok?" "Ok thanks jordie I'll send you the address" "ok bye seh" "by jordie" I hung up and took a shower
30 mins later I arrived at his crib.. "damn I said walking to the frount door. Before I knock he answers. "Hey jor" he says "hey sehseh" i walked in and got greeted by dogs "omg a doggo" i got on the floor and played with them and jah was laughing "let's go in my room." He says grabbing my hand "ok" i say
1hr later
We were laughing telling jokes laying in bed. "Hey jordie.. um can you tell me why your dad wasn't in you life" he asks nervously.. "sure but don't tell no one.." he nodded agreeing
"so before I was born my dad was kinda a criminal. He use to sell stuff and get a whole bunch of racks of money ya feel me? So all of my family was born in the Bronx or Brooklyn Nyc. At the time Brooklyn was bad. And that's were my mom and my dad were from. So after like a couple of years he got caught selling. Keep in mind my mom is pregnant wit my sister. So he went to court. They told him to snitch on the other ppl that was riding with him while he was selling his shit but he didn't say shit he didn't tell the mother fuckers who he was wit so that got him 2 years in jail the first time. Then he went back for about 3 or 4 years for doing that shit again. Then he go out my mom got pregnant. But not on purpose.. and New York was getting really bad.. so the moved to Georgia most were most of my family was moving bc pf how bad ny was getting. So she found out she was pregnant and.. my dad just really didnt want anything to do wit me.. so when I was born my dad was always playing video games or arguing wit my mom.. so my mom wanted to go back to school..keep in mind my dad still had the racks of money that he had from when he went to jail. He let my mom hold on to it. So my mom asked him if he could pay for he school and he said no.. so she got all worked up and they were arguing..." I took a break and started to remember them arguing as a tear feel down my eye. Jahseh held on my hand.. "you got this" he says " my dad would really pay me or my sister attention.. he wouldn't really c-care I guess you could say.. so one day my mom came home and went through my dads phone and saw he was messaging his ex.. and my mom and her didn't get along like at all so they argued again and my mom finally left him. And I Never saw him again." I said as I looked down..
Jahseh pulled my chin up "your so strong.. you went Through all that and your still here.. I'm proud of you jordie" he says kissing my forehead
After a while we fell asleep in each other's arms.
