Today I'm going to the membersonlys house. Me and. Jahseh had a child 1 month ago. We broke up due to just growing apart. I miss him. He misses me.
At the house...
Everyone was there. All of membersonly. Jahsehs mom. His whole family. And his manager. And his friends. And my friends. Everyone that was there u was really close with. Like Cleo,his grandma,step dad,adien,Leo,and Chrissy.They all been helping jahseh out. He's been fucked up about this break up. I left xorria with my mom so I can talk with everyone about our break up.
I walked inside that house and heard a lot amid chatter. I walked into the kitchen were everyone was.
All eyes turned on me. Once they saw me they all smiled. They haven't seen me since the break up. "Hey y-y/n" jahseh said "hey guys" I say looking down.
We all gather around the island. And start on this conversation. They were all waiting for me and jahseh to start talking. "I-I just wanted to say.. I'm sorry y/n for abandoning you. I should've been focusing on you and our child instead of working." He says looking me in my eyes. I look up to keep my tears back. "I'm sorry f-for not being by your side when you needed me. I just got caught up in mommy mode. And I was focusing on our baby.." I say looking down. "Our relationship was getting worse and worse.. and it got to a point were I didn't give a fuck." He says seriously. "But some days you wouldn't give a fuck and some days you would" I say "I woulda done I agree" he says talking over me. "And it was the most confusing thing for me to deal with" I say starting to tear up. "Awe y/n" juice says
"I know and it just has shit to do with maturity. And stress.. we couldn't get nor be away from each other." Jahseh says looking down. "And i feel like.. I feel like-" I cut my self off with a sniff. "If orra wasn't apart of the picture. Shit would've been different.. I'm not saying-" I look down and say "I hate this" I say due to tearing up I feel all eyes on me. "I'm not I regret having a child. I'm just saying if we didn't have her then shit would've been like what it was like before we had her. It would've been different" I say looking at all of them. They all nodded in agreement. Cleo rubs my back.
"I-I feel like.. the only reason I was fighting for us. Is bc.. xorria to grow up with us separated. Because we never ahead our parents together" I say looking at jahseh crying. After I say that he broke down. "And I know when my parents were together even tho I still had a step dad I was still fucked up in my mind. And I didn't want Orra to be the way I was" I say. He looks up and nodded walking over to me. We hug.
"I'm sorry" he says in my ear
This was trash but oh well
Bye niggers
