This might get u a little emotional.
4:30 am December 3
"Hey ski" I say sleepy "Inyx jah is in his suicidal thoughts again.." he says panicking "ok I'll be over soon" I get dressed in sweats and a sweat shirt and throw on sum grey timberlands bc it's December. Brush my teeth real quick and get in my black Porsche and drive for 15 mins until I make it to the membersonly house.
The door is unlocked so I open it all of them are in the living room except jah "in his room" they said. I rush up there and bust in the door. He's crying with his head down I sit in front of him putting his face in my hands "hey baby." I said sadly "what's going on?" I asks softly.. "can I stay with you?" He says crying "of course you can spend a night... yeah" "but whats on your mind?" I ask "nothing" he says "oh don't give me that.. I know when somethings wrong.." I say
"I feel l-like the world would be b-better with out me. And t-that no one l-loves me." He says crying looking down.
" excuse you?... the world would be better with out you?" I say wiping his tears "don't you eva talk like that about yourself.. you are a amazing human being.. a beautiful soul.. a wonderful boyfriend,brother,artist,cousin,friend, and son." I say as he looks up at me with lust eyes then looks back down"Do you understand me? I know life can be difficult at times. But your gonna get thru this. And its gonna make you a stronger person inside and out. Life is never and I mean never easy. We have to go thru obstacles..ok? Some times we need a little rain to have a rainbow at the end of our story." I say he looks up at me when I say the last part. "And no one loves you. Listen if no one loves you then I wouldn't be here right now. They wouldn't be downstairs worrying about you. They wouldn't had called me. Listen jah if those mother fuckers don't love you then I'll tell you this. I know for a damn fact that I love you jahseh. I love you so much and I'll never regret saying that. Ok?" I say looking at him. He's still crying so I put his head in my chest and he cry's more.
After he calms down he looks at me and pecked my lips. "I love you baby" he says
"I love you to"
GOD DAMN I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE ONE OF THESE MOMENTS WITH HIM.
