Bokuaka- once in a lifetime

•from his eyes •-part 9-

-Bokuto pov-

Haha that was fun , akaashi is the best.
We played so much volleyball I thing he might join the team with me , HECK YEAH .

2 more classes till the day is over .
We don't have afternoon volleyball practice till next week so I get to have a whole week just relaxing but I'll just practice at home.

I start walking to class . Those stares .

Oh- I guess I forgot about earlier . That was so weird . I didn't know what I was saying all I remember was getting picked on and then me running . Then akaashi found me , he is so amazing.

I kinda hope he's my soulmate now -

WAIT WHAT AM I SAYING , he probably only likes girls , let's not repeat the whole thing I did last year .
Man it's so hard to like guys sometimes !!!

But it just- feels so different

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Flash back to before in the volleyball club

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The bell ring and I race to the club , don't wanna be late .

....no ones here yet, why did i think I would be late . That was very stupid of me. I sit for what felt like hours , I mean it was probably only like 2 minutes before some of these annoying looking dudes show up , I should never judge someone based on how they look, everyone deserves the best in life and I hope to make this club a safe space for everyone.

They look at me and giggle .... wait do that know. One of them seems familiar , wait is he the little brother of that third year from last year . Oh god I thought I was finally done when his brother left AHHH , oh right I should never assume things about a person I should understand that he has his own personal struggles . Though I should make sure they are actually good people or else this could be a problem I don't want anyone getting hurt .

"Oh hey ! Are you some of the new members of this club . Our volleyball club is supposed to be a happy place for our members and you can bring along one or two of your friends sometimes !! If you want to join please feel free to write your name down . You can join the club throughout different points in the year though joining now would be preferable ."
OMG HOW DID I NOT MESS THAT UP USUALLY I GO ON AND ON AN-

"Hey what's your name ??"
They mutter , I think I know what they are talking about . I continue to hold a smile on my face though this time more forcefully, I don't want them to think I'm weak

"Oh my name is koutaro bokuto , I am a second year student and I am aiming to be the best player here !"

My other team member walk in , I feel a little better now since I know they will be able to stop them if they try to hurt me .

Akaashi should be here soon lol , I was caught up thinking of akaashi and other stuff I failed to notice the boys talking amongst themselves..... oh no this is bad , very bad BIG BAD, oh no they know oh no oh no . It will all be fine let's just pretend that his is all fine all fi-

OH LOOK AAAKHHAASHIII
"HEY AKKASSHIIIIIII !!" I yell in his direction ,he smiles .
His smile is ... cute , oh I hate it though .

BEGONE INTERNALISED HOMOPHOBIA BASED ON PAST TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES

but to be honest I really think akaashi is cool .

Akashi seems off "wait do you know these guys ??" I yell still smiling

Only since he is here , akaashi is so fun .

"Oh yeah- they're from my class".

The boys begin to introduce themselves, I recognise the names and sure enough.

I see Akaashi begin to feel all yuck inside , I felt every emotion.

"Never thought I'd see you here you little gay shit- "

My brain stopped listening , I had heard enough and so had my teammates

No one AND I MEAN NO ONE HURTS MY FRIENDS .

They step closer to akaashi , my brain freaks out I feel like screaming , oh god oh no I have felt every emotion he is going through right now , I MUST PROTECT HIM !

Staring at him , only seeing him in that moment, only wanting him in that moment .

My body unfreezes as I dash to his side nudging him back and protecting the young boy, I know this might be wrong but my body can take a few hits , I've felt it before and I can deal with it again.

"Hey hey hey fuckers ,that's a big no no around here ,any homophobia and I'll kick y'all out . I may be only a second year but I'll find a way if you pick on akaashi over here ok"

I must remain calm at all costs , I can't have an emotional out burst , not here , not now , not in front of them all , not in front of akaashi. No one can see me like this . Please just stop taunting me , stop , stop , STOP ,STOOOOOP!!!

They wouldn't.

"Oooooo is that your boyfriend or something, we all know your gay , I have an older brother who went here , he knows all about how you like sucking dick for fun hah!! "

My face is red , not now not here , not about akaashi, i cant let him notice.

I'm not dragging him into this , no no no .
He's probably straight he'll never be my boyfriend but that won't stop me from catching feelings ... OH GOD WHAT AM I THINKING AHHHH, WHY BRAIN WHYYYY

WHY WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN , AND WHY ARE THEY THE ONES TO FIRST NOTICE THAT I JUST SO HAPPENED TO CATCH FEELINGS.

I feel a tear roll down my cheeks as my vision gets blurry .

I feel him step closer

They confirmed my suspicions.... it's his brother .

But most of those were just rumours I swear , I'm still a virgin and currently I don't really want sex or that shit.

But that didn't stop people from saying shit since I'm gay .

All of these triggers at once , I'm sorry everyone ...

"Hey man, how about not ruining the vibe round here ok . You may seem tough but -"
Tears filling my eyes as I try my best to hold them is , wiping them before they fall . I stand up straight to feel a little bit stronger

"we all know who is really better on court , that's all that really matters round here !! This is the volleyball club not the who can - who , THIS ISNT THE MAKE FUN OF BOKUTO BECAUSE HE HAPPENS TO BE BI AND GETS BULLIED BECAUSE OF IT CLUB !! " oh no no nonono
I did not just say that .tears falling like waterfalls I burst out the door , running my mind racinf .

Turning , running .

I chose to run , it's my fault I'm like this , it's my fault I fell for someone who will never like me back .

I find the corner I always sit it .

Surprisingly quiet compared to everywhere else and I sit and cry .

It's been 3 minutes .

Then .

Those eyes , the ones from my dreams .

..... why him , but at the same time I'm so glad it's him .

He sits down with me and looks into my eyes .

My heart beats fast.....

I think I'm falling in love again.

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End of flashback

Oh god today was weird , I step into class .

Only a few more hours ,then I go home .