Brittana: cannon

Chapter 4: changes

The summer went by quickly, filled with cheerleading practices, tanning poolside, and parties. Now that the girls had crossed that boundary between just best friends and friends who were something more, Santana did take advantage of it and made out with Brittany in front of boys at parties. It turned out to be a successful way to gain attention, and therefore increase her status. She also found that making out with Brittany turned her on like crazy, and so she used that to get herself in the mood to have sex with Puck or other boys if he wasn't available.

There were a couple of drawbacks to this, however. The first one being that the more she made out with Brittany in front of others, the more comfortable with it she became. She found that she soon had to stop her hands from roaming places not appropriate for others to see her hands roaming.

The other drawback was that the more she made out with Brittany in front of others, the more scared she was that people would figure out that she liked it. That she more than liked it, in fact. Santana loved making out with Brittany more than she had ever liked making out with anyone else combined.

That night in the wilderness seemed to have broken something open in Santana that she had refused to let out before. She knew she couldn't go back to the way things were before she had kissed Brittany, but she had to try to control it.

So as the summer wore on, her fear of others finding out about her feelings grew and she tried to keep the public displays down to a minimum and be seen hooking up with Puck more often. Santana kept returning to Puck because he was easy and familiar. He didn't want anything more than what they were doing, and he at least made sex bearable even if she knew would never be enjoyable. She also knew now that, as much as she shouldn't, she wanted Brittany in the way she should want boys like Puck. And she couldn't let anyone else find out her secret.

Santana definitely couldn't stop herself from kissing Brittany in private. Once they had started making out at parties, Santana couldn't go a day without thinking about Brittany's mouth. And so she found herself starting to kiss the blonde girl while they were hanging out together after cheerleading practice. This started to happen nearly every day, and she couldn't bring herself to stop even though she tried. Often, they would barely make it to one or the other's bedrooms before Santana would grab the blonde and bring their mouths crashing together as they made their way to lie down on the bed.

They made out increasingly more often in the privacy of their bedrooms as the days went by, and their sessions began to increase in intensity. Sleepovers went from watching movies and gossiping to kissing and cuddling. Sleepovers with Quinn or other Cheerios often found the girls sneaking off after the others fell asleep to find an isolated place to be together before they went back to try and get some sleep in their riled up haze.
What started out as minimal touching turned into caressing faces and arms as they kissed, which grew into grasping hips and thighs, then finally touching breasts over shirts. Brittany definitely seemed to enjoy it if her soft gasps and quiet whimpers were any evidence to go by, but she let Santana dictate how much they could do. And Santana was so thankful that the other girl let her move at her own pace, even though she could tell at times that Brittany wanted to do more.

Santana thought about that night in the wilderness a lot. She remembered every detail of Brittany's naked body and thought about it often, especially when they were kissing. She had started thinking about what sex with Brittany would be like. She found herself thinking that it may be good if they just did have sex, then maybe she would get it out of her system and things would go back to normal.

Sex hadn't been great so far with boys, so maybe she just needed to see that it was just as mediocre with girls. But she had a fear at the back of her mind that sex with Brittany would be better than anything she had ever experienced, so she was hesitant about moving past that final barrier between friends and something more. That all changed after the start of school.