Brittana: cannon

Chapter 9: i want to get to somewhere better

Santana was a mess. Things were still tense between her and Brittany, and she missed her best friend. Even though the blonde had tried to keep communication open between them, Santana found herself withdrawing more. She spent less time with Brittany, and it hurt both of them. Some days, the only real interaction between the two of them was in glee club.

They had defeated the Warblers and won Regionals. Nationals were coming up, and they had a shot at winning if they could all work together like never before. That's why she came up with the idea to bring Kurt back to McKinley. She knew it would help get her into everyone's good graces if she could get him back, and that would help boost her popularity and maybe help her win prom queen. Then it might get Brittany to notice her again. If the other girl started to pay more attention to her instead of Artie, then she may just be able to steal her away from him.

It could not have been more perfect when Santana realized that Karofsky was gay. It gave her the perfect plan: blackmail Karofsky into apologizing and helping bring Kurt back, have him run as prom king to her queen, and when they won he could continue hiding in his closet while she got her girl. She didn't even care enough about Sam to dump him before she started fake-dating Karofsky. At least she didn't have to worry about making out with guys anymore with him as her beard. She almost felt bad for him as afraid as he was, but then she thought about how he treated Kurt and figured he deserved to be forced into her plan.

The t-shirt assignment for glee club didn't go as well as she hoped since Brittany tried to get her to wear that "Lebanese" shirt in front of everyone. She was pretty sure the blonde mixed up the words on purpose this time so Santana could take a baby step into being open about her sexuality, but with Brittany one could never be 100% positive. Still, she hated that the other girl kept trying to push her out of the closet when she didn't give her a reason to be. She would maybe work towards being out if Brittany would be with her, but after being rejected she wasn't sure if she could handle it.

Brittany got upset after they argued over the shirt, so she wore it in the back of the auditorium while the other kids performed so at least she could tell the dancer she did wear it for her. She took a picture of her wearing it and texted it to Brittany so the blonde would see. Brittany told her she was proud of her for putting it on, but that she wished she could have worn it on stage with everyone. Santana kind of wished she could have, too, but she was just not ready.

Then Brittany went and told everyone that Santana "played for the other team" on her insane web-show and caused the school paper to start a rumor that she was gay. This was the exact thing she was trying to avoid happening. She did not want people whispering about her behind her back, and she definitely didn't want anyone to know she was a lesbian yet.

She wasn't naïve enough to believe that some people hadn't figured it out already. Santana figured that Quinn already knew since she and Brittany made out enough at Cheerios sleepovers in the past. She figured someone had to have heard or seen something at one of those. She also knew that Rachel had probably figured it out since her dads were gay and she made that Sapphic comment after Santana had sang that song with Brittany and Ms. Holliday in glee club. And if Kurt didn't at least suspect, then something was wrong with his gaydar. Now, after this rumor going around, talk would spread and more people who had suspected what was going on would probably know for sure.

Things had started getting better between the two girls since Santana had worn the shirt, but now she freaked out on the blonde after the rumors began. Brittany told her that what she said wasn't what everyone was interpreting it to be, but she wasn't sure she believed her or if it was another way to push Santana out of the closet. The brunette's reaction probably just made things worse for herself, but she couldn't help but freak out. Her life felt like it was out of her control.