this wasn't how it was supposed to go.
shit.
i remember he said that if anything were to happen to him,that i would have to take over the case.
"-do you understand cora?i trust you with this. you're the only one capable of continuing the case of anything were to happen to me. watari and i both trust you."
i couldn't say anything back then,all i did was nod. if i could ever figure out how to go back in time i would've said something. i would've slapped him across the face and told him that it was too dangerous to even consider. that i cared too much to see something happen to him.
but all i did was fucking nod as he took another bite of cake. he noticed my silence and sighed.
"name one person that has survived this. one that lived to be happy again."
"you can't." i said, knowing where this was going.
"exactly." i zoned out while listening to him drone on about the case. i already knew who it was.
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the moment L hit the floor, i fucking lost it. when he died, a part of me went along with him. nothing comes easy anymore.
standing over his grave like this.. i can't do anything but pity him. is it..pity the dead? is that what they say? something like that.
"L i... i don't know if you-" i swallowed hard in an attempt to get the lump out of my throat. "i don't know if you're there or not,if you can hear me or not. tch."
dumb bitch.
idiot. idiot. idiot!
i left that day. everyone is rushing me to move in with the case, but with watari and L gone, nothing comes easy anymore.
nothing comes easy anymore.
my eyes scanned over his grave.
' in loving memory of Lawliet, the worlds greatest detective. 1982-2007'
i ran my hand over my heart, feeling the soft but fast beating of it.
i'm so sorry L. please forgive me. i can't go one and i know you'll be let down. i love you.. and i think i always will.
