i don't know what my fear is,really. whenever someone asks me that i usually say something like "being left alone" or "losing my friends and family". but who isn't afraid of that.
i'm not afraid of your typical scary clowns or spiders or anything deemed as scary. but i am so FUCKING terrified of being the last to die out of my friends and family.
it would be so excruciatingly painful for me to watch them be picked off my the grim reaper himself. it would suck even more if i saw it happen in real life.
i want to be the first to go. so that i don't have to see my friends and family die. when i die they'll never know what i was going to become.what i was going to become.
it sounds selfish i know, but it's for the best.
because maybe if i die young i'll get to stay young and beautiful forever and not disappoint my parents.
i'll be the first to go.
