Entering in his quarter alekh throws the keys of his jeep on the centre table and went straight to his bedroom. Picking up photo frame from the side table he goes and sits on his chair near the window which is open and cold breeze is blowing in making the room cold. But this cold dosen’t effect alekh. All the scene from this night are still playing in his mind and he is ashamed of himself for how could he have thought if she was naina. Seeing that photo his tears drops from his eyes. Talking to that photo is the only thing that keeps him going and keeps his mind sane. That photo is of naina and alekh, he is thinking of that smile which naina had on her face…it was before that jeep blast.
Holding the photo in his hand, tears keeps rolling down from his eyes he says Naina mujhe maaf kar de, maine ye soch bhi kaise liya ki wo tu hai? Apun jaanta hai tu apun ke pass wapis aayegi, apun ka dil jaanta hai tu zinda hai kuch nahi hua hai tereko. Agar tujhe kuch hota to apun ko jarur mehsoos hota, akhir apun dono ka dil ka rishta hai. Sirf bolne ke liye hi tujhe behan nhi banaya tha dil se behan manta hai apun. Jaanta hu ki rajveer sir ke jaane ke baad tune jeene ki iccha chord di thi, par jb tak tu wapis nahi aayegi apun log rajveer sir ko kaise dundhenge. Apun ko tere yakeen par yakeen hai ki tere rajveer sir jarur aayenge par uske liye pehle tera wapis aana bhi to jaruri hai. Please naina aaja, wapis aaja meri gudiya…dekh tera bhai tere bina kitna akela ho gya hai…..
Tu tension mat le naina, main maa baba ka bhaut acche se dhayan rakhta hu, wo bhi apun ko bhaut pyaar karte hai par apun ki pehali family aur pehali dost to tu hi hai na……aur… aur to aur.. maa baba ko bhi to unki beti ki kami mehsos hoti hai unke liye hi aaja. Naina ….dekh tere bina sabka kya haal ho gya hai…
Still crying and talking to the photo and creasing it lovingly
Wo…wo punjaban hai na…wo yedi pooja… tere bina wo mobile ki dukaan ne mobile wali bhasha (language) main baat bhi karna band kar diya hai….aur to aur serious mode par jaa chuki hai.
Wo apna ali hai na…wo jo sabke orders follow karta tha humesha, ab use har cheej main shadyantr (conspiracy) ki boo aati hai….aur seniors ko question karna to uska shauk sa bann agya hai.
Aur huda…..uski to jaan basti thi apni phoolan main….bilkul chup ho gaya hai wo..kisi bhi janani ke peeche nhi bhaagta hai wo ab, flirting to jaise bhool hi gaya hai huda. Sirf apne kaam par hi dhayan deta hai aur bolta hai rajveer sir jaisa officer banna hai use…
Apna yudi wo to roj ke naye devices banta hai aur bhaut aacha officer ban gaya hai….ab pehle ki tarah na baccho wali harkatein karta hai na hi sharmata hai kisi se….na jane tere jaane ke baad ekdum se bada ho gaya hai wo…
Naina main jaanta hu jab tak tu humare sath thi tab tak kisi ne tujhe ye nahi jataya ki tere hone se sab pr kitna farak padta hai par tu to bina bole sabke dard ko samjh jaati thi na phir aaj kyu nhi samjh rahi hai, kyu nhi dikh rha hai tujhe hum sabka dard? Aise kaise humse door jaa saktii hai tu tujhe waapis aana hi hoga naina hum sab ke liye, tujhe aana hi hoga tere bhai ke liye, tere doston ke liye,tere maa baba ke liye, tere rajveer sir ke liye….wapis aaja naina tujhe tere pyaar ki kasam hai tujhe tere rajveer sir ki kasam hai….
Alekh cried miserably, and with that he drifted in to deep slumber. This has been his routine since the day naina is been missing (according to alekh) or dead (according to her family and friends).
