Never Change ( Richie Tozier x Eddie Kaspbrak Reddie Fanfiction It )

It Has Been A While

It is the summer of 1991. 3 years have passed since we destroyed it... or at least put it back into hiding for now. The majority of us losers are now 16 and let's just say things have barely changed. We are all just as close as ever, spending all our time messing around at the quarry. However ever since it happened, none of us have really felt the same. Some weird energy seems to linger between us. Not that it's awkward or we feel less close. It's like we are all hiding something. Refusing to talk about how much it has actually affected us. For Bill's sake we made an agreement that we just pretend it never happened. Of course that may not be so great for the rest of us. We may not of lost a loved one like he did but we almost lost our lives. Even worse we lost the one thing we had left... our innocence.

After everything Beverly moved into an apartment with her Aunt nearby. It's rather small and her Aunt is out late working a lot but it is so much better than her previous living situation. She still seems to blame herself for everything, thinking she is a murderer. None of us see her like that. All she ever did was protect herself, nothing more. Of course she didn't feel the same so we tried to never mention it. Her and I have grown a lot closer over the past year. I would even say she is my best friend- besides Eddie of course. Even after all this time she still cuts her hair short. It's some kind of power move, well at least that's what she tells me. She has really grown into her skin and her confidence just deepens her beauty. None of the bullying affects her that much anymore so they stopped. Now every guy at school competes for her attention but she so clearly has her eyes on Bill. Even if she won't admit it to me or herself.

Bill's family never really recovered since loosing Georgie. It was all so sudden that I don't think they knew how to react. It's almost as if they have forgotten what it's like to be parents. They spend most of their days out of the house. Doing anything they can to distract themselves from life. Bill acts like he's ok but none of us really know how he feels about it all. He is just as much of a leader as ever. Recently he started speech therapy. He still has his stutter but he's been improving immensely. Ever since he and Beverly kissed there has been this weird tension between them. Neither of them will make a move again so all of us just have to watch them painfully flirt.

Ben has been sitting back and jealously watching Bev's and Bill's relationship commence. He acts like he's over his crush but the rest of us know otherwise. Not that Beverly is even slightly aware. He's been working out for the past year or so and may I say he is jacked. Basically unrecognisable from how he was. Something about him hating being defenceless was the sudden turning point. Of course he still spends time in the library and loves all of his geeky music.

Stanley has not changed in the slightest. He's gotten more intense and serious however. Obviously he's one of my friends but he does like to belittle me all the time. I can't make a single joke around him without him tearing it down. Something is so clearly up with him but none of us can quite figure it out.

Mike has continued working on the farm. Now that he's 17 he has been doing less homeschooling and has a lot of control over what happens. Let's just say that the animals aren't being killed there anymore if he can help it. None of the experience we went through seemed to change him. He's just gotten wiser and naturally is where everyone goes to for advice. Something about him is so unthreatening. There is also the fact that he doesn't talk a lot which means he is a great listener.

Then there is Eddie. He's become less paranoid about germs recently. Not that he is completely over his fears. At a certain point he decided to give up on fighting his mom and just continued to take those fake pills. He says it makes her happy and keeps her off of his back. Which I guess is a good thing but I can't help but feel sorry for the guy. After everything he seems the most affected. Everyone knows he has nightmares still but we never address it. The last thing we want him to feel is embarrassed. Also he hates to be alone, that's why we always spend so much time together. He can't stay in his house without company or it's as if he's going insane. Now he is still the scrawniest kid I know but he's grown into his body a lot more. His features have only enhanced making him look almost ethereal. Then there is his sense of style. It isn't amazing but it's a lot more developed than his old look.

Last of all, it's me. I'm just as emotionally unavailable as ever. Being serious in any situation is not my strong point. Jokes and teasing people are the only things I can do to seem myself. Happy isn't a word I would use to describe myself but I also wasn't depressed. Yes I've changed a lot and have been hiding things but none of that mattered. Recently I have gotten into music. That and drinking. I would personally say that the only mature thing about me was my taste in alcohol. I'm turning 17 pretty soon so hopefully then I can get a car and maybe even leave this town. Leaving is something that I would do in a heartbeat if it wasn't for the losers. They are the only people that keep me from going insane. Going away without them would be the ultimate betrayal and I could never do that. My dad has become more and more flakey over the years. He's only home about once every week and even then it's just to sleep and grab some clothes. He tells us it's multiple business trips but you don't usually come home with bruises and the scent of whiskey from a job. Mom has really been affected by it all. Everyday I come home to her passed out on the sofa from either the meds or vodka. There's never any food in the house and we are living off of the limited amount of money that dad actually leaves. I don't blame her for anything, how could I? She's stuck with that dickhead just like I am.

Yes you could say some things have changed but not really. Deep down we are all the same. We have just adapted to this new life we have to lead. Pretending that we didn't go through the trauma we did when we were only 13. As long as we stick together we will all be fine. Now we have a whole entire summer to get up to as much dumb shit as possible before our last year of school. Then it's off to college and possibly leaving this town forever. That isn't a bad thing it's just leaving behind the people that will be hard. But hey we are still young and our stories are only just beginning...