If we ever stop talking to each other,
I wouldn't blame you,
I would blame me because I know its hard,
To love a girl like me.....
Cause even when you already show me how much you can love me,
I will still have my walls,
Its not because I don't want us,
Its because I'm afraid of the possibilities that could ended up hurting,
Both of us.
Thinking I can hurt you anytime hurts me,
You said you will and could wait and chase while you can,
And that's when I questioned myself until when?
And most importantly....
What if when I'm finally sure of my own feelings,
You finally and already give up?
And that time,
You left with your heart broken,in pain and tired,
While I finally knew I should've accept my own feelings towards you sooner,
Crying in pain seeing its all too late already,
Both of us gets hurt,
And I don't want that...
Maybe the rejection is because you confessed way too soon than what I expect.....
But after you told me why I understands why now,
The friend zone that I gave is just somehow my way to prevent me from getting hurt,
But then you're the one who gets hurt and you have to handles it by yourself,
I knew you felt guilty for telling me what you felt..
I am thankful for your honesty because thinking you're hurting without me realizing I'm the reason,
Shattered my to pieces.....
Because I hurt a boy that show me love,
While I hurt him because Im afraid of love,
I hope we would get to know each other a bit better,
But if stopped....
I knew why and I i will not ask you why..
But I really just wish..
We would somehow ended up together one day....
