Iwaoi My Sister Took My Iwa-chan...

|5| It's happening

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Two months passed by, Tooru still hasn't told Hajime what happened with Koukani.  Tooru had told his mother, but not his father he was to embarrassed to tell his father.  Not only that Tooru also told his mother what happened at Hajime's house. That time Tooru stayed over with him four days in a row, he just wanted to feel safe and like he fits in someplace.  He had a shared apartment with Ayane but he wanted to be away from her for a bit.  He felt too ashamed to go to his parent's.  Hajime brought him comfort.  He  currently was at his room.  He missed the feeling of Hajime's touch.  He pouted pulling the covers up to his mouth.  Slowly day by day hour by hour minute by minute it was killing him more and more, he was sadder and sadder.  He got depressed, he felt depressed every time Hajime wasn't there.  He starts to worry that he's obsessing over Hajme and tried his absolute hardest to disconnect the most he could from Hajime.  Every day it hurt more and more he was so tired of his he didn't want another day without Hajime.  He wouldn't come out of his room except to go to work.  He started to skip meals and becoming anti social with most people.  He saw what he was doing and how he was doing... he could hardly recognize this person.  He hated whoever this was.  He started to try to forget Hajime and it had been a while since he had seen him so he could push his feelings down.  He seemed fine on the outside, on the inside there was still something missing an empty vault a dead piece of him but he hid it.  And he hid it well.  Just as he hid his insecurities he hid this even from his mother.  

It had now been four months without seeing Hajime, Tooru still thought of him and sometimes missed him but he didn't let that take such a big effect on his life anymore.  He hid it more for Ayane than himself, if she saw him sad she would probably pick up on it.  

It was a nice day outside and Tooru wanted some coffee.  He had left to a small coffee shop he liked and ordered his usual.  

A french vanilla latte.

He waited till he got it and paid.  He left back to his apartment with his sister.  He walked directly to his room and just when he was about to open the door he heard something.

"Tooru!!"  Ayane chimed calling him from the kitchen.  He sighed and walked to the kitchen with her.

"Hm? Yes?"  He asked.  

"Look! Look!" She was more hyper than usual, just as she pulled the back of her hand to face it to him he felt his heart sink.  

He saw a ring... a golden ring with a white gem on it.  Tooru's stomach churned, he felt like breaking down he felt like falling to his knees and crying he wanted to sob he wanted to be able to get mad to get sad to be broken just for one day but he couldn't he had to be happy for her.  He puts on his very best fake smile his absolute best, his lip quivered a bit and his eyes crystalized but Ayane took it as if he was happy his sister was getting married.  Tooru went numb on his feelings he couldn't feel anything so it made it easier for him to fake a smile.  

"That-that's great."  Was all he could said, his voice broke but he knew he had to get out of there now.  

"I knowww!"  She smiled happily.  Tooru nodded with his fake smile and turned away from her imminently bitting his lip to not let go of sobs. He practically ran to the bathroom and went to the shower.  He locked the door but forgot to take off his clothes.  He took a moment to process what was happening and dropped the coffee pressing his hands to his eyes and falling to his knees.  He stretched out his hand to turn on the water and kneeled there under the cold water slowly feeling how it warmed up.  He sat there for an hour letting his tears run sobbing ever so lightly so they can be hidden from the sound of the water.  He didn't know how to explain how he felt... he was tried of over thinking and tried of wanting and missing his best friend he was doing so great but now he's back to where he started.  He just let the water run and soak his skin clothes and hair.  

Iwa-chan is engaged to Ayane... Iwa-chan is engaged to Ayane Iwa-chan is engaged to Ayane Iwa-chan is engaged to Ayane Iwa-chan is engaged to Ayane

He repeated that in his mind making his breathing worsen and start to hyperventilate.  He was having a panic attack why should he give Hajime up? He was the one who meet him he was the one who kept his friendship with him he was the one who would empathize with him he was the one who tried to understand him he was the one who watched him grow up with himself he was the one who could write a bibliography of Hajime not her. 

It's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair

His hands trembled and his body ached form being sitting under the water, his head hurt of all the thoughts colliding into his mind 

"Make it stop..."  He cried from all the mental torture he was giving himself.  He turned off the water quickly and got out of the bathroom and left to his room.  Pressure built up in his chest and head he felt weak and drowsy his sight started to fog up and shake as if he had vertigo.  His head was killing him and the pain in his chest was too much. He tried to go to his bed but... before he could even reach it Tooru Oikawa passed out cold in the floor of his room.