My Brightest Star (JENLISA) (Currently Proofreading)

She's gone

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JENNIE

I thought last night was just a dream I tried calling Lisa hoping that I will be able to hear her sweet voice until I felt tears run down my cheek I tried and I tried because maybe this is all some kind of stupid prank and that she would tell me that she's waiting outside my door. I ignored Nayeon's calls all morning I know I have many meetings today but I don't feel like getting up. It was all my fault, I was so busy with my business and myself that I forgot about the people around me my best friends and most especially Lisa.

'You lost her Jennie, you were too busy and now she's gone' My inner thoughts start to hunt me

"Shut up"

'She left you and you will regret everything especially when she finds someone new'

"Fuck you, I know she will come back and we will be together again" I tried dismissing my thoughts but it's out of control. I'm scared because I know everything is true and I know she might find someone but I will wait for her like she did with me. I will not give up on you Lisa, it's my turn to wait for you.

'Don't get your hopes up hun, she will be with someone who will prioritize her and make time for her. The one who won't take her for granted'

I was about to argue with my thoughts when I heard a knock I jerked out of bed ran downstairs 'maybe Lisa changed her mind.' I convinced myself as I opened the front door, it was Jisoo, Rosé, Seulgi and Irene looking at me with their concerned eyes. They hugged me immediately and I felt my tears flowing again.

"I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid for letting Lisa go." My body was trembling as words exited my mouth with a weak voice

"Shhh Jennie, you're not stupid okay? Don't say that please." Rosé trying to make an eye contact while rubbing my back.

"Let's just go inside, I bet you haven't eaten anything since yesterday am I right?" Irene pulled me inside as I nodded. They prepared the table for our meal.

"Come on Jennie, you have to eat something. We don't want you getting sick"

"Jisoo's right Jennie, it's not good for you if you keep on crying and not eat anything. Can you just please eat something and we'll talk after okay? You need to calm down Jen." Seulgi stepped closer as she tried to reach my hand.

How can I eat and let alone work when my girlfriend is not here with me. I was stupid and too full of myself thinking that she will not leave me, I was so selfish and she was so selfless. Realizing everything that she has done for me, all the patience and understanding that she has given me made me hate myself for taking advantage of Lisa, the love of my life.

LISA

Our team arrived at Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) everyone was so excited because this has been a dream come true especially for the members. They were all planning what to do during our stay, tourists spots to visit in our free days. But ever since my arrival in Thailand I wasn't in the mood to talk about all of those things knowing that Jennie didn't show up at our meeting place. I have no phone to update Rosé that I arrived safely with my crew. Zoning out and trying not to cry I felt an arm around my shoulder.

"Hey Manoban, what's up with you? You're physically here but your mind is elsewhere. Is there something wrong?" Palisa approached me looking worried. One of my best friends in Thailand, I leaned on her shoulder and let out a deep sigh.

"I-i just wish she came you know? I hope she made time for me. At least for the last time."

"Who? Jennie? The woman who tamed the heart of our wild child?" She chuckles "Kidding aside, I'm sorry to hear that Lisa I may not know her personally but based from all the stories that you have shared with me I can say that she's a good person. Maybe the timing is not right for the both of you. If you guys are meant for each other you will be together one way or another. For now let's have some fun while we're here okay? Let's find you nice woman to flirt with." Palisa said with a playful tone as she was pulling my arm.

One week of practicing our routine, tonight is the opening of the dance competition. Everyone feels giddy but excited. I managed to buy a new phone and I updated Rosé about my whereabouts but had no time calling because of all the practices and interviews. I haven't had the chance to talk to Jennie, I was scared. What if she realizes I'm not the one for her? What if she hates me because I left her. Or what if I waited a little longer? What if---

"Okay everyone! 2 Minutes left! Good luck!" One of the production staff shouted.

I left Rosé a message before going up the stage.

"Chaeyoung-ah! World of Dance is about to start, I hope your butt is seated in a couch in front of a Television because I didn't pay 100 dollars of paper view for nothing HAHA kidd. Anyway, I have to go. I will try to update you if our schedule is not jampacked again in the days ahead. Tell our friends I said Hi, I'll see you all soon! Love you Rosé!"

The 1st episode ran smoothly, we partied all night as a celebration that we are moving on to the next level of the competition. But as expected our schedule was filled with interviews from different talk shows and radio stations. Weeks has gone by, win after win in each round and it attracted more interviews from around the world. I am happy but I still feel incomplete. I miss her, I miss Jennie. I hope she misses me too.