𝐈𝐧 𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐧...

Chapter 1

CHAPTER 1:

♫ There's a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain

When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same ♫

1, 9, 1977

In Which We Get To See How Azalea Spends Her Train Ride With The Marauders

1. 9. 1976

Dear diary,

I'm going to Hogwarts again! God, I am so happy. Even if people ignore me, it's still Hogwarts! That castle has a weird effect upon you.

The summer was horrible; mother and father have finally kicked me out of the house (as they so many times said they would), and I had to spend it at a muggle hotel. First I had to go to Gringotts, to exchange the little amount of money that I have into muggle money. In total I only had hundred dollars. Pretty bad if you ask me, counting the fact that I still have a year to attend Hogwarts before finally finding a work.
It is mostly Lily's fault; we got our OWL results, and she was very unhappy with hers. Specially when she saw mine. I'm putting the letter in here, so I can see it in the future:

Ordinary Wizarding Level Results

Pass Grades: Outstanding (O) Fail Grades: Poor (P)
Exceeds Expectations (E) Dreadful (D)
Acceptable (A) Troll (T)

Azalea Evans has achieved:
Astronomy: O
Care of Magical Creatures: O
Charms: O
Defense Against the Dark Arts: O
Arithmacy: O
Ancient Runes: E
Herbology: E
History of Magic: E
Potions: O
Transfiguration: O

It's pretty good, in my opinion, right? I'm a bit disappointed that I haven't got an 'O' at everything, but that is better than nothing.

Anyways, as I was saying, Lily's was a disaster; she had five Trolls, three Poors and one Exceeds Expectations, in Care of Magical Creatures.

I would have helped her, but she's been doing the same as always: ignoring me or duelling me. It really hurts. Because, even if she's horrible to me, and I have...changed, Lily is still my older sister. I can't hate her. I still love her. She is my sister. We share blood, for god's sake! I kind of understand Black. His brother (and the rest of his family) are in Slytherin, while he's the Gryffindor. Outside, I've noticed that he acts as if he hates Regulus, but I'm sure he doesn't. You can't, even if you try, hate your sibling.

The moment father found out that I had a better result than Lily, he grew mad. He started yelling and doing...the usual. I guess I am really lucky that he isn't a wizard, because otherwise the punishment would be much worse.

Not only that, but none of the girls have been answering my letters.
Not Bella, not 'Dromeda, not 'Cissa, and I honestly starting to get worried. Bellatrix told me about the Dark Lord (or how I prefer to call him, Voldemort) when I entered my first year. She said that he would keep trying to recruit followers, mostly Slytherins and purebloods.

I am not stupid; I know that Bella would never join him, she's way too...I don't know how to express it...caring? Either way, Bella would, no, could never kill people, nor 'Dromeda. Last thing I heard from her was that she got disowned for marrying Ted Tonks, the Hufflepuff prefect that used to help everybody. I'm happy for her; he was really kind. Helped me once when Lily's crew came. And that have only done a few Slytherins, under them Severus.