Unforgettable (D.M.)

Chapter 5: Holding back

"Good morning buttercup." Draco says as he sits down next to me. I roll my eyes at him.

"When are you going to stop calling me that ridiculous name?" I question, he smirks at me.

"Never." He answers.

"But you shouldn't call me that anymore, you're going to the ball with Hermione." I say. He shakes his head.

"That's only because-" He starts.

"No. I don't want to know. You like her and I like Ron, so you can stop the flirty little comments and we can just stay away from each other just like how I planned since the beginning." I cut him off and I move to sit next to Luna. Luna and I aren't really close friends, but she seems really sweet and kind.

"Hi." I say to her and she smiles at me.

"Hi." She says back.

I watch Maya move away from me and my heart aches the further she gets away. Why must I like a girl who hates me? It's very unfair, and the fact that she likes Ron makes it even worse. Crabbe moves and it's next to me, where Maya was sitting before.

"Hey." He says, I don't say anything back and I just stare down at my feet.

"Ok, what is going on with you? You've been acting... different." Crabbe asks, I look up at him.

"It's nothing, just my father." That's not fully a lie, my father has been being hard on me lately. He works for the ministry of magic so he likes to come visit me, but mainly to just yell at me and tell me how much potter is better than me. It's always the same thing over and over again, potter did this and you couldn't, potter has that and you don't, and so on. He's always comparing me to him and it gets really irritating because I am so much better than him, or at least I like to think I am because if I don't then I'll just be proving to my dad that he's right and I'd rather not have that.

"What did he do this time?" Crabbe questions.

"The same old stuff where he tells me how much I should be like potter but then tell me he's worthless and stupid, it's really hard to tell what he wants from me these days." I tell him, he nods.

"Well maybe we could sneak down to Hogsmeade after school hours like we used to do, we can have Goyle and Pansy come too." Crabbe suggests, I sigh.

"I'm just gonna stay in tonight, but you guys can." I say.

"Oh come on Draco, remember how fun it used to be." He begs. I want to but I can't seem to get Maya off my mind and it won't be much fun with my head clogged up.

"I'm sorry, I've got a lot of homework." I tell him and then Snape begins speaking to us.

I make it to my dorm and I fall onto my bed with a loud sigh. And as I lay here my eyes slowly begin to shut and I fall asleep.

"Hey buttercup, it's time to wake up." I hear someone with a familiar voice say, I open my eyes and his face slowly becomes clearer.

"Draco?" I question as I sit up and I rub my eyes.

"That's my name." He answers with a little laugh. He tilts up my chin and plants a small kiss on my lips and he smiles at me, I feel my cheeks turn pink as he looks at me with those perfect grey eyes.

"I love you, you know that right?" He questions, I nod not being able to get out any words while he's looking at me like the way he is.

"It's ok, you don't have to say it back yet. Whenever you're ready, I'll be ready." He says, and I suddenly feel butterflies in my stomach.

"I love you too." I manage to get out, a huge smile spread across his lips.

"Ugh, you're so perfect." He whispers and he closes the space between our lips again. I don't hesitate to kiss back, and it feels like fireworks are going off in my whole body. Our fingers intertwine and I lay back on the bed, never breaking the kiss as he hovers his body over mine. He pulls away and bites his bottom lip slightly, which drives me insane.

"Are you sure you want to do this now, I can wait if you aren't ready." He reassures me, I smile at him.

"I'm ready." I answer.

I open my eyes quickly and I sit up. I look around the room and everyone else is asleep. What was that? Did I just have "one of those" dreams about Draco!? This can't be happening. I like Ron, I know that I do. And I don't like Draco, I know that I don't. But then why am I having that dream? Ugh, I just need to clear my mind. I get out of bed and I put on my Gryffindor robe. I slip my shoes on and I grab my wand. I walk out into the hallway and I use my wand as a light.

I manage to make it outside without getting caught. I sit down on a bench as snow begins to fall from the sky. I take a deep breath and I watch the snowflakes melt as they hit the ground.

"Maya?" I hear someone from behind me, I turn around to see Ron.

"Ron, why are you still up?" I question, he walks closer and sits down next to me.

"I could ask you the same question." He says, I let out a shy giggle.

"Bad dream.. well it wasn't necessarily a bad dream, it was just random and confusing." I tell him.

"What was it about?" He questions, I sigh.

"It's nothing, I came out here to stop thinking about it." I answer, he nods.

"Right, so are you excited for the ball tomorrow?" Ron asks.

"Yes, it's going to be so much fun. I'm glad we're going together." I say with a smile, he smiles back and places his hand on top of mine.

"I am too." He says and his eyes look down to my lips, he looks back into my eyes and starts leaning in with eyes closed. I want to kiss him, I do.. but something is stopping me. I back my head away slightly and he opens his eyes back up.

"You don't want to?" He questions with a sad look, I shake my head.

"No I do, it's just...." I trail off.

"It's alright, you just aren't ready. I understand." He says, I nod even though that's not it at all, I mean I don't know what it is but I don't think it's because I'm not ready.

"Let's go back to bed, it's getting late and tomorrow is a big day." He says.

"Yeah." I reply and we both walk back inside. I should have kissed him, then everything tomorrow would be perfect. But for some reason, I just couldn't.