Unforgettable (D.M.)

Chapter 9: No Passion

My lips move perfectly in sync with his, making the moment even better. I feel his hands slip under my shirt and around my bare waist. His cold rings touching my skin sends goosebumps all over my body. I push my hips forward, rubbing against his thighs. He moans into the kiss which drives me insane and I feel my body wanting more of him. He pulls away from the kiss and pulls my shirt over my head and onto the ground and I do the same to him.

"Draco-" I start to say when he presses his lips against mine again, and I don't hesitate to kiss him back. He starts to push me slowly on my back and as he does so my eyes open quickly and I sit up, breathing heavily.

"What the-" I say, so surprised that I cut myself off. I just had a sex dream about Draco, not that it got any further than making out but still. I'm with Ron, or at least I think I am... after last night, I'm not sure if he still wants to be with me. I basically chose Draco over him when I kissed Draco on the cheek. I knew it was a bad idea, I knew I shouldn't have done it, but he had just healed me from Ron's elbow to my face and I don't know.. I guess something took over me and suddenly I saw my lips pressed against his cheek.

"What are you doing up?" Hermione asks, rubbing her eyes.

"I'm sorry, just thinking." I say, and she sighs.

"I know you and I haven't really been seeing eye to eye lately, but we're still friends and as your friend, I want you to tell me what's going on." She says and she gets out of her bed to sit next to me, on my bed. I take a deep breath.

"It's about Ron and..." I pause.

"Are you and Ron breaking up?" She questions.

"I don't know, I think so. But it's because there's another person involved, a person that shouldn't be involved but is. And they are tearing Ron and I apart." I explain.

"Is that what you want?" She asks.

"Of course not, I want to be with Ron. But I.. I can't stop thinking about this person, no matter how hard I try. Ron has even told me I had to stop talking to this person because he's ruining our relationship, but I didn't listen and now I don't know where Ron and I stand." I tell her and she arches her eyebrows.

"Well I'm no therapist, but it sounds like you want to be with this person more than Ron, even though you don't want to admit it. If I were you, I would make a move with this other person and if you are meant to be with this person then everything will work and if it doesn't work then you know you're wasting your time thinking about this person." Hermione says, I smile at her.

"Thanks mione, that's really great advice." I tell her and she smiles back.

"Go get him." She says and I nod. I get up and I change into a cute shirt and some leggings and I brush my hair and teeth quickly. I take a deep breath and I walk out the door and I walk to the slytherin common room. I say the password and the door opens, I see Draco, Blaise, Crabbe, Goyle and Pansy all talking on the couch. I walk over to the couch and Draco's eyes land on me and he stands up quickly.

"Maya? What are you doing here?" He questions and I come up close to him and I smash my lips against his without any hesitation. I needed to do what Hermione said, and there was no time to hesitate. He's shocked at first but then he melts into the kiss, as do I. We kiss for a few seconds before I feel the guilt become too strong and I pull away and he stares into my eyes.

"What was that for?" He asks.

"I needed to do it to figure out how I feel." I tell him and he gives me a confused look.

"So, how do you feel?" He questions.

"I need to think about it, ask me tomorrow." I say and I walk away from him.

I stand in shock, did that just happen or am I dreaming? I watch Maya walk out of the room.

"Bro, what was that?" Blaise asks me.

"I don't even know." I say and I turn to see Pansy and she's sad, Goyle, Crabbe and Blaise are all staring at me in just as much shock as I was in. I shake my head and I go to my room, I fall asleep quickly.

I walk into the great hall and I see Maya and Hermione talking, and Maya looks nervous. I take a deep breath and I walk up behind her.

"Maya." I say and she turns towards me, as well as Hermione.

"What do you want Malfoy?" Hermione asks, angrily.

"I came to talk to Maya about last night.." I answer and Hermione's face expression goes from mad to surprised.

"Last night?" She asks Maya and she smiles nervously and Hermione's mouth drops open.

"You didn't tell me he was the other person!" Hermione practically yells and Maya sighs.

"I promised you I would tell you how I feel, so let's go." She says and she grabs my hand and we walk outside.

"So I thought all night and, I've come to the conclusion that I can't try to push on something between us that's not really there. Don't get me wrong, the kiss was amazing, but there was nothing there. I didn't feel any passion that's strong enough for me to act on." She tells me and I nod.

"Right, no passion." I repeat her hurtful, and false words. There was passion, I felt it. She didn't want to stop kissing me and I didn't want to stop kissing her.

"Look Draco, I'm sorry-"

"You need to stop saying that, it's not true and you know it." I say, getting a little angry.

"Why are you being like this?" She asks.

"Because the girl I love just told me that we had no passion!" I yell at her and I see the shock written all over her face as I said that.

"Love?" She questions, and now I can see regret in her eyes.

"I meant like, it doesn't matter." I say and I start to walk away.

"Draco, please don't go." She begs and I stop in my tracks.

"No, you don't get to do that." I demand, my fists ball up.

"Do what?" She questions.

"Pretend that you care so that I come crawling back just for you to push me away and break my heart again. I'm done playing your games." I explain and I keep walking away from her.

"That's what you think this is, a game!?" She yells and I turn back towards her.

"Yes." I respond and she shakes her head.

"Well I'm sorry to break it to you, but not everyone likes you and just because they don't doesn't mean that their feelings are just games. I love Ron, and that will never change. Now for the last time, I am sorry for hurting your feelings but it's better than leading you on!" She yells at me.

"Don't worry, you've done enough of that already." I say.

"I never lead you on." She responds.

"Then what do you call this, hm?? You made it seem like you wanted to be my friend and then as soon Ron said you can't, then you stopped talking to me for weeks. And then the hallway you let me press you against that wall even though you were dating Ron, which I didn't even know about. Then you came into the common room and kissed me, and then proceeded to tell me that you did it to figure out how you felt and you walked away. And now you're here telling me that kiss meant nothing and you love Ron. If that's not leading on, then I don't know what it is. And before you try to apologize to me again, I don't want to hear it. I'm so done with your meaningless sorries. So please, just stay away until you know how you really feel." I explain and I walk away without another word from either of us. I hated doing that, but she can't keep doing this. She needs to learn what she wants.