Saudade [KaoEarth]

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There's lightness in every darkness.

There's darkness in every lightness.

There's happiness in every sorrow.

There's sorrow in every happiness.

There's remedy in every pain.

There's pain in every remedy.

I remembered 3 things that you taught me which I didn't expect I would be able to learn.

Learn to forgive.

Learn to accept.

And mostly,

Learn to love

...someone unconditionally.

Remember,

All things must come to an end...

Even if we made our own fantasy,

All fantasies were meant to end.

We've reached the latter,

Mu.

It hurts

Knowing that I was this happy.

It hurts

Knowing that I loved you the most.

But what hurts me the most,

I haven't showed you,

...how much I loved you before.

It's been a year

Enduring this pain.

Being suffocated.

And being drowned by it.

I want to escape.

But how can I?

How can I escape

When you still linger inside of me, Mu.

When you are in my mind.

When you are in my sight.

Mostly,

Where you are still in my heart.

Tell me.

I badly want know

how to forget this pain,

to vanish our memories,

and to be numb from these hundreds of emotions,

that I learned from you.

I wish I could turn back time.

To seize my moment with you.

To share all my unspoken thoughts.

To shower you with all my heart.

To stare at your shining eyes.

and to make you feel that I truly love you.

Now tell me

How can I forget it?