Do You Ever Feel Lonely? (Nadia X Reader)

Missing

A/N: Hello, my lonely souls!

Your bean is back with another chapter, which I hope you'll enjoy.I've come to the decision to keep this story going and make it a sanctuary, a safe place for the Nadia stans (and basically everyone) who's suffering from certain issues. It doesn't matter if a chapter is about problems within a relationship. Nadia is now here to ease them with her loving nature :)If you have any suggestions, please let me know! I'd gladly write your ideas and read your opinions. It's beneficial for everyone.But now enough of me talking. Enjoy!

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A lonely heart's beating. A deep, yearning breath. You are alone in the enormous room of Countess Nadia. Your soul feels lost as your body is resting on her bed, spread out, and sinking into the mattress. Your beloved left a week ago for political reasons, but even she was unsure of when she can come back. It feels different without her. The bed is too big, the room way too enormous for one person. But with Nadia, everything seemed perfect. There's no reason to deny it: you're terribly missing her.

You wish she were there to press her body against yours, to look into your eyes, caress your beautiful face, and to calm you with her silky voice. You wish she were there to love you and fill that emptiness in your aching heart. You imagined having her close, just watching her be there with you. Sometimes it scares you how attached you are to her, but nothing is the same without Nadia. The days don't give you the same joy, and the nights can't bring you the same comfort. Nadia is all you want and all you need in your life to make you happy. Your love for her is so deep that nothing else matters as much as the Countess herself.

She promised you to come back soon, and yet she's not here. She promised to hold you in her arms before you even blink. But you're still alone, begging the stars and the moon above the roof to bring your lover back, to see her again, to love her with everything you have.

But then an unusual idea came to your mind. You were sure it might not be the best end your misery, but it's definitely sweet and calming to a lover's troubled heart. Without thinking, you rushed to the nearby desk, pulled out the chair, and sat down on the extravagant furniture. There was already a piece of paper in front of you, definitely left there by Nadia herself. You smiled to yourself, knowing how incredible and hardworking she is. Sometimes it separates you two when you need each other the most, but you're still proud of your lover for being such a good ruler of her people.

Grabbing the quill, you quickly dipped it in ink and brought it to the paper. Let's see, what shall you tell her? You feel excited, but suddenly, nothing came to your mind. Frustrated by yourself, you dropped the quill on the desk and let out a sigh. How are you supposed to write a love letter like this? Clearly, it's not your specialty. But such thing as love for another can't be described with words. It's a lot more difficult and meaningful than that. Maybe you should just write her something simple, remind her that she's missed. But no, you want more than that. Nadia deserves the world; you need to offer her more than just a few words.

And then you thought about how much you love her. How much she means to you, and how much you wish to be in her arms right now. Love might be hard to understand, but whenever you think about Nadia, it's all you can feel. Your hand moved. You picked up the quill and once again placed it on the paper. This time for real, you began pouring your heart out.

My Dear Nadia,
The past few days have been harder than I thought. I can't seem to think about anything but you; your loving memory is haunting my mind. Late at night, I lay wide awake and wonder if you're thinking about me, too, if you want me to be in your arms, to hold me close, to make me feel loved once again. My heart is aching to have you by my side, and my body is longing to feel yours against it. I can't stand another moment apart from you. When you left, it felt like a piece of my heart was torn out of my chest, and only your return, knowing that you're safe, can heal the wound left behind. I'm not the same person without you, dearest. My smile, my laugh, my happiness, my everything is gone, just like you. So please, come back soon, my love. Make a lonely soul feel complete again. Because I'm only complete, when I'm with you.
Love,
Y/N