Sold Myself (SPG)

Chapter 22

I stood there dumbfounded, hindi ko pinangarap na magkakaroon ng anak ng walang ama. 

Naisip ko agad yung pag-alis ni Nathan.

If it's already over, then it is.

A few months later,

Umuwi ako ng Pilipinas at nag bukas ng isang maliit na coffee shop and kainan sa tabi ng bahay. Sobrang simple lang siya at kinaya ng budget ko. 

"Jenny, eto na yung mga wala tayo sa kusina, heto na yung listahan." Inabot ni mama sakin yung listahan ng ipapabili niya sa palengke. Ngumiti ako, seeing her all healthy and healed up was the best thing that happened. Masaya rin ako because of the baby inside me. 

"Sige ma, lalabas na muna ako."

Naglakad ako palabas papuntang palengke at naglakad ako. Sobrang busy ng kalsada. 

Pag tawid ko biglang may nakita akong nanay na naghahabol sa anak niya at mukhang delikado ang ginawa nila. Sobrang bibilis ng mga kotse. 

Tumakbo ako dahil mapapanganib sila pareho, 

wala na akong ibang inisip kundi yung batang biglang tumakbo. 

A sudden pain went through my back, at bigla akong nawalan ng malay.

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Nagising ako, in a hospital. Nakita ko si Nanay nakatingin sakin. 

May doctor at nurse din nag-aasikaso, "Doc, kamusta po yung baby ng anak ko?" Tanong ni mama.

"Ma'am, hindi po nag survive yung baby niyo." 

Nung narinig ko ang sinabi ng doctor, I felt like my heart broke into pieces.

Hindi ko alam anong maramdaman ko, madami akong plano para sa anak ko. I was devastated.

A few years later, 

 I missed my little angel, hoping na masaya na siya sa langit.

I never heard from Nathan ever since, hindi niya man lang kinamusta yung bata even though she's gone. 

Habang naglalakad ako sa kalsada, I saw him on the billboard. He's going places, good for him.

Pinatuloy ko yung pag-aaral ko at malapit na ako mag graduate, medyo late na ako para mag aral ulit pero pangarap kong tapusin yung pag-aaral ko.

Pag ka tingin ko sa labas there was a familiar man na nakaupo sa coffee shop namin. He looked like he was waiting for someone.

Bigla akong kinabahan. 

I slowly opened the door at napalingon siya.

"Jenny?" 

I expected it to be someone but turns out it wasn't him.. 

"Gabriel? Ano ginagawa mo dito?" 

Si Gabriel pala, yung ex-boyfriend ko. 

"Can we talk?"

"Bakit? Para saan?" 

"Please, sit down first." He says and I obeyed. 

I stayed silent, I noticed na he was nervous.

"Kamusta ka na?" He asks. "Okay lang naman."

"Bakit pa ba tayo nagkamustahan? Sabihin mo na kung ano yung kailangan mo."

He looked nervous and looked at me in the eye. "I want you back, Jenny."

His words stunned me. "I promise I won't do it again...about what happened."

I'm not sure if I am ready to open up my heart again,

I loved Gabriel, but towards Nathan..

was it love?

or was it just the sex?

The next day,

"Good morning class, today is the day of the talk, your attendance is required, it is also part of your exam so be sure to attend." Sabi ng teacher. 

"Tinatamad talaga ako makinig sa mga ganyan eh, sarap nalang umuwi tsaka matulog." Sabi ni Roxy, classmate ko habang nag reretouch siya ng make up. "Facts." Connie replied.

Pumasok na kami sa auditorium at umupo na sa aming assigned spot. The program started.

"Today, we have invited our guest speaker, Mr. Nathan Crimson!"  The audience clapped and I just sat there dumbfounded.

It's him...