The First Cut Is The Deepest {1}

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Kelsie's POV
I'm in my hotel room getting dressed for work, I pull on a random long sleeved t-shirt, with some black ripped jeans when I get a call. I walk over to my bed and look for my phone, which is lying underneath my pillow,I press accept before even looking at the caller ID.

"Hello." I say walking towards my closet.

"Kelsie, Hey." I hear Mark say through the phone, I stop what I'm doing and just stand there too shocked.

"Look, I know you probably hate my guts right now and you have every right to, but I really am sorry about what happened. I never meant to hurt you Kels, it was a mistake, a stupid mistake that I wish I could take back..... I miss you." Mark says through the phone his voice cracking a little bit.

"Please say something." Mark says.

"A mistake? A mistake is when you forget your car keys, or you forget to turn the washing machine off or you forget to make dinner. Those are mistakes, what you did... to me. That was a choice that you and her made, it wasn't a mistake." I say my voice shaking, with my eyes starting to tear up.

"Kelsie..." Mark starts to say but I cut him off.

"I don't want to hear any of your lame excuses to get out of this situation, do you know how hurt I felt when I found out from my brother that you slept with his wife, what's even worse is that I told Addison about us, I didn't even tell Derek, but I told her and she.. you and her..." I trail off not being able to say those words.

"I know, and I am so sorry. Kelsie, you have to believe me I never meant to hurt you." Mark says.

"Then you shouldn't of slept with her." I say before hanging up on him I start to breathe heavily with my hand against my mouth trying to keep myself from crying, because he doesn't deserve my tears. I hear a knock at my door I quickly wipe away any signs of me being upset, I look through the peephole and see Derek. I open the door reluctantly, knowing my brother will know something's wrong but if I don't open the door he'll suspect something's wrong.

"Hey." I say opening the door with a fake smile before walking away.

"Hey, nice to see you too." Derek says sarcastically before walking in closing the door when he comes in.

"Sorry, I'm just getting ready to head to work, I'm a little behind." I say grabbing a coat from the closet with some ASOS design relay heeled black ankle boots. I sit on my bed and put my shoes on.

"Hey, are you ok?" Derek Asks concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I tell him standing up and walking to the bathroom putting my hair in a messy bun with a few strands around my face.

"Kelsie..." Derek says in the tone of voice when he knows I'm lying. I apply some mascara and clear lipgloss before walking back into the room.

"Look, Derek I love you and I know you want to help me and know what's bothering me and why I seem so upset even though I'm doing a fantastic job at hiding it but... it's just something I'm not wanting to share yet. Maybe one day but not right now, I'm sorry." I tell him.

"If you don't want to talk about it, that's fine but just know if you ever want to talk I'm here for you." Derek says making me give him a small undetectable smile.

"I know." I say, before Derek pulls me in for a hug kissing my forehead softly before pulling away and handing me my bag.

"Are you ready to go then?" Derek Asks, making me raise my eyebrows.

"Yeah, But I thought I was driving to work myself." I tell him.

"Not anymore, I'll drive you there." Derek says.

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