crazy rich asians [seventeen ships au] [ON HIATUS]

four

kwon soonyoung's pov

i let my body flow with the rythm of the song. every step, i move with grace. dancing was always my forte. my go to hobby, when i feel tired, the practice room practically being my home.

i steady my breathing, preparing for the upcoming second verse. then, i sang. the lyrics showing what i truly feel. i can see the audience's faces filled with awe, and that pumped me up.

geobi na kkeaji moshae tto geojismaleul hae
nae gieogmajeo muldeugo isseo

please baby, neon naegeseo mulleoseoya hae
someone tell me what should i do?

fear, that's what i feel.

losing all of what i worked for, just for my sexuality.

after the performance.

i make my way to the van, going to the dance room to practice some more.

"hoshi, you did great." i hear one of the staff say to me. i smile at him as a sign of saying thank you.

this past few days have not been really going well for me. everything's falling apart as i started to realize my love for men. being gay was still not really accepted in Rose Quartz. i'm afraid that one day i have to give up on finding love just because of Rose Quartz's fucked up rules.

i look outside from the tinted window of the van and see a couple holding hands. i wince, not really the good time to see two people be lovey dovey to each other.

my mind goes to the thought of what it's like to be with someone, being able to hold them, to kiss them, and to spend forever with them. i want that. 

but i don't want to be banished from Rose Quartz.