We Shine

Mistakes and Making Them Up

Mistakes and Making Them Up

It hurts to be away from someone you care about.

It's my birthday.

And I've locked myself in my room to mope.

I've spent my last eight birthdays with Madison.

I purposely jammed the lock of my door so Beth would leave me alone. And yet, she takes the knob off of the door instead.

"Why are you still in bed? You are seventeen! This is a big deal!" She tells me, and I keep my monotone expression.

"Jate is here, and he said he's taking you driving. Go get dressed." She continues to speak, yet her words enter one ear and out the other.

I get under my comforter. I roll, and I keep going until I go over the edge.

My body lands on the floor with a thud, and I just lay there.

"Jayden!" My Mum gasps and I don't really care.

I hear her footsteps get closer to me.

She looks at my face and she looks worried as I stare back at her with dead eyes.

"What's wrong with you?" She takes a seat beside me.

We haven't talked like this since I was really little.

I sigh, "I miss her."

Beth scoffs, "you hurt her."

She's still upset about what I said to her.

"Do you think she'll answer if I called her?" I whisper.

"I'm not going to tell you what to do, but please if you are going to hurt her again. Let her go now Jayden."

It's my turn to scoff, "you out of all people telling me to let her go? Ever since I told you I had a crush on a girl, you've urged me to keep her around."

"Darling, she's been through so much. I love you both, and if you both aren't good for each other, I say it's best to be apart."

"Is it true that love is pain?"

Beth stands to her feet, "I'll let you find that out as you grow. But Jayden let me tell you friends can break your heart too." And she begins to walk out of my room.

"I don't understand." I sigh, just before she makes it fully out.

"Darling, I don't know the depth of your feelings, but hear me out as a life lesson. I know what I've said in the past but things change and people change. Stick with the girl who loves you. Not the girl you love, because the girl that loves you will go to the end of the earth for you, but the girl you love will only love you on her terms."

I shake my head. "But that means that if I do ever reunite with her it'll mean she either loved me from the start or not at all... I don't like that."

"Well it's the truth. I don't want to see you hurt anymore." With that she leaves.

I pick up my phone and dial her number. It doesn't even ring. I then dial her home phone number, and her mother answers.

She tells me that Madison won't be home till late in the evening and that she's been out of town. She says she'll tell her I called.

I take a breather and get ready.

I can't exactly leave Jate waiting, and he will drag me out of this complex with his bare hands before he chooses to leave of his own will.

I'm getting my learner's permit today.

I plan on getting my junior driver's license as soon as possible.