Forever 2: "The Falldown" (Hariana / Diall)

32: The Confusions

The nightmares that will kill me, once when it happened in reality.

A R I A N A

I heading back in our house, crying. I'm shocked at the same time threatened about Taylor, who still have feelings for Harry. Why is this happening to me, to us? I don't want any single if this.

I feel like I was betrayed and back stabbed at all. Because I'm befriended by a woman who is still in love in her past, which is my present right now, Harry. Also I don't know if she is planning something to break me and Harry apart. Since we became friends and she will take an advantage to it to get closer to him. But now it won't happen.

Demi is right. I shouldn't trust her, I shouldn't befriended with her. I shouldn't saw her since the start. I shouldn't talk to her about everything that happened between me and Harry. But what I did was a total opposite and now it was all fucked up.

I opened the door once I reached our house and Harry, Demi, actually all of them is in the living room, stared at me. The stood up quickly once they saw ne crying miserably.

"Holy shit! Ariana, why are you crying!?" Harry asked as he ran fast towards me and hugged me.

I didn't respond and just escaped through his hug. I can't talk. I can't speak. All the sounds coming out from my mouth are all sobs. I was silenced by everything that was happened. I went directly in my room, as I threw my purse on the floor, sat on the bed.

Confusion is all in my mind now. Different thoughts is circling in my head, thoughts about our relationship. I don't want to be stress again but it's on my mind, repeating. The nightmares that I had. The nightmares, when I saw Harry betrayed me for Taylor, their kiss, all of it. The nightmares that will kill me, once when it happened in reality.

Harry went inside looking very concerned, as I saw in his teary eyes. Also, others followed him, so all of us are in the room. I just looked down and still crying. Harry kneel down and made me look at him. I feel very defeated.

"Ariana, please tell me, don't make me worry." Harry said as he pleaded.

"Demi is right." I managed to said and all of them looked at her.

"I'm right? About what?" Demi asked and looks very clueless.

"Taylor still loves you, Harry." I blurted in the middle of my sobs and suddenly the good ambiance in this room went down.

Harry can't talk and just stared at me. He's in total shock right now, knowingly that Taylor already moved on, but not. He became frozen in the sentence I've said. Demi sat beside me and start caressing my back.

"So what if Taylor still loves me? I don't love her anymore." Harry said, breaking the silence. He is still kneeling down and holding both of my hands.

"Guys, we should excuse them." Demi said and all of the went out, leaving only the two of us.

H A R R Y

Taylor still loves me  What the fuck is that? I thought she already moved on. Honestly, I still have feelings for her, but I love Ariana more. I don't want to loose her. She's the only one who can made my day perfect, who can made me feel complete.

I know Ariana is very confused now, I hugged her very tight. I want her to feel that I'll be always there for her, I'll never leave her like these. I'm not letting go of her no matter what. I know she is very hurt right now and thinking crazy things that might and I know it won't happen.

"Ariana, I don't care if she still loves me, I don't care about her. But I do care about you and us." I said and kissed her forehead.

That time, she is calming down. Thank God, I don't want to see her suffered. Because it will be too much for her and for us. As much as we want to forget all the shits happened since the start of vacation, we cannot.