RANJISH HI SAHI [𝕮𝖔𝖒𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖊𝖉]

Chapter 23a| Eras (زمانے)

ONE YEAR LATER

WAQT

kiya hai waqt? Paani ki trha beh jaanay wala waqt. Kisi zakhm aur kisi muskurahat kay lye na rukne wala waqt. Mein aksar socha krti thi kay zindagi mein honay wala yeh dukh mere har dukh pe bhaari hai aur iss se ziada mein kbhi toot nai skti. Lekin har baar waqt ne mujhe ghalat saabit kr dia. Mujhe lgta hai humey waqt se, zindagi se, qismat se kbhi  bhi shraayat lgani hi nahi chahiye. Jese kal ki baat hi thi kuch lougo se muhabbat hojana, yaariya bn jana, bharosay jurr jana, khushi ghm ek saath jurr jana aur aaj ka haal yeh hai kay na woh waqt raha, na woh muhabbat, na woh loug na unse jurri yaariyaan. Ab tk mein ne ek cheez buht achey se sekhi hai. Jese waqt ek sa nahi rehta wese loug bhi ek jese nahi rehtey. Faasley kb aur kese itney barh jatay hain ehsaas nahi hota aur sach puchein toh waqt aaey barh bhi jata hai aur uskay saath hum bhi. Aur aisa bhi nahi hai k hum hassna, bolna, khaana, sona chor detey hain. Zindagi dobara se ravaan hojati hai mgr woh garhey jo waqt gehrey kr gya hota hai woh hamesha khaali hi rehtey hain. Gehrey aur khaali. Unhey bharna insaan kay lye to namumkin si baat hoti hai. Yeh aisa hi hai jese mein zindagi ka rewind button maang lun. Waqt kay saath daraarein purani aur farsooda hojati hain mgr kbhi bharti nahi. Zindagi baaz dfa aisey muqaam pe laa kay khara karti hai jahan apna aap andhere mein teer chalaney jesa lgta hai. Raasta anjaan aur manzil namaloom. Sirf haath mein koshish ka teer hota hai jo hum andhere mein bhi chalaye jatey hain kay shayd koi ek nishaaney pe lg jaye aur raasta roshan hojaye, manzalein waaziyah hojayein pr shayd yeh aisey hissay hain jinhey har insaan ko akele hi chalney partey hain. Na koi apki jgah chal skta ha na apkay hissay kay rastey dhoond skta hai. Yhaan sirf hum hotay hain bs aur Allah. Allah wohi jo har andhere mein yeh hosla aur bharosa deta hai kay koshish jaari rakho manzil mushkil zrur hai mgr na mumkin nahi. Muhbbat dosti rishtey ghar , barri gehri chot detey hain. Baba , ajeeb lg raha hai kehtey huey bhi mgr mujhe lga tha unn se ziadakoi mujhe torr nahii sakta lekin phir se ek insaan buht asaani se aya aur torr gya. Yaani qasoor uska nahi mera hai. Ek hi garrhey mein baar girr jati hun. Itni mazboot nai thi na. Par ab ... ek saal ne sikhaa dia kay dil de kay bhi ruswa hi hua jata hai. Insaan ko maazi kay haatho kamzor nahi hona cahiye aur na hi mustaqbil kay khauf se baith jana chahiye pr haal mein sirf Allah pe aur khud pe bharosa karna chahiye.jin se dard baantey unho ne hi dard diye. Isi lye ab sb baant'na chor dia. Gham bhi aur kahi na kahi muhabbat bhi..."

She closed the cap of her ink pen and folded the crisp paper to add another memory of her words in the shelf filled with numerous letters. Draped across the white shawl, she looked simple with blonde stray locks around her face. One year had turned that beauty elegant but had taken the badass biker side of her.

"Sarrinah result agya hai yar!" Noor made a stormy entry, breathing heavily.

She had told everyone not to call her "Raina" ever again. Never.

"Kiya?" she stood up holding her heartbeat.

"Passed!" she opened her arms to give her a hug with an emotional smile. Sarrinah felt breathing again. She had worked real hard for the specialization (FCPS Part 1). A year spent with countless, sleepless nights and early mornings with a determination. She did it !