hayes' shirt

chapter 7

Victoria's POV

it's been a week since I talked on the phone with hayes , he hasn't called , or texted since we talked and the tour is almost over . I'm going back to NC with Shawn bc the last magcon is in NC so me and Shawn are surprising the fans .
** in NC after the tour **
Me and shawn got to nash's hotel room he was staying at with cam , and as soon as I walked in I asked nash where hayes was . " I haven't seen him in days .. haven't you talked to him ? I thought you guys were together again ? " " so did I ..? " cam said as he was waking up . I couldn't even respond , I didn't know what to say . I had to talk to him . I just ran out of the room . I ran straight to their house and busted in the front door . I was crying by now . I ran right into Elizabeth and she held me by my shoulders and asked what was wrong . " is hayes here ? " I said still crying . " no ..? I thought he was with nash ? " I dropped to the ground crying even harder . she tried to pull me up but I wouldn't move . she sat down next to me and rubbed my back .
" Victoria ..? what is going on ? "
" hayes isn't with nash . nash said he hasn't seen him in days . " Elizabeth held her chest . " w-what's wrong ? " I asked scared . " hayes told me he was going to stay with nash 2 days ago .. "
and this point I was a complete mess I had makeup streaming down my face , tear stains on my white hayes sweatshirt and my hair , oh god , my hair was a complete disaster . Elizabeth grabbed her keys and started going towards the door that I left open . " where are you going ? " " to look for hayes . " i got up to come with her but she told me no . " I have to . I have to help you look ! please !? " i was starting to raise my voice a little . " no , I need you to stay here just in case he comes back . you should go take a shower and change . you can wear something of Hayes' but promise me , you will not leave . " I dropped my head and nodded . she closed the door and I ran upstairs into Hayes' room . it was disgusting . his clothes were everywhere , he had cups , and pizza boxes , and wrappers all over the place . I went into his drawer and picked out some clothes for me , and for him for when he came home . I cleaned up his room and fixed his bed , and vacuumed . after I finished I got in the shower . I found one of my old razors I left in there .. I took it apart . I held the blade in my hand and my wrist on the side of the tub . I placed the cold metal on my skin and started cutting . I heard the front door slam " shit . " I said as I dropped the blade . " ELIZABETH ? " I yelled . " IS THAT YOU ? " I heard Hayes' door slam too . my wrist was bleeding really badly . I didn't realize how deep it was . I kept trying to rinse it off . " WHO THE FUCK IS IN MY ROOM ? " I sighed in relief because it was hayes . I quickly dried off and put on the clothes I set aside . I wrapped up my arm and ran out of the bathroom and wrapped my arms around the back of him . he slung me off of him and I hit my head on the dresser . " why the hell are you in my room ? " he asked . I didn't say anything " I SAID WHY THE HELL ARE YOU IN MY ROOM ? " I started backing up to the wall . I've never seen him like this . he looked horrible . his hair was all over the place , his clothes were dirty and had holes in them , and he looked really really mad . I tried to go for the door but he grabbed my by my wrist " OW " I yelled in pain . I fell on the ground and he let go . I ran out of his room as soon as I got the chance and ran straight into Nash's old room and locked the door . I heard him running after me but I didn't care . I was so scared . he started banging on the door . " Victoria , Victoria ! please , open the door . " I unlocked it making it noticeable and guickly hid in the closet . he looked around for a second and finally found me . " damn it " I whispered to myself . " what ? " he asked . " nothing ! " I said crying again . he pulled me up but I pulled away from him and started backing away " Victoria I'm sorry . " he said grabbing my wrist again . i yelped in pain . he looked at me confused considering he barely touched me . he tried to roll up my sleeve but I yanked my arm away .
" get away from me . " I said , with tears rolling down my cheeks . he went into his room and I told him he needed to change and take a shower . yes , I was mad at him , but I still cared . he walked back in with the bloody blade in his hand . " fuck , fuck , fuck . " I said about to start crying again .
" Victoria ..? " he put it down on nash's dresser and walked over to me . he started to roll up my sleeve again . this time I didn't pull away . he started tearing off the bandages . it was deeper than I meant for it to be . " Hayes .. I " he cut me off . " you promised . " he started to cry too . " I'm sorry . I really am . we just couldn't find you and I " he cut me off again " you did this because of me ..? " " I was scared ! I was worried ! you told your mom you were going to nash's 2 days ago ! he said he hasn't seen you in days ! WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN !? " " I just went out .. " " out ? you went ' out ' ? where the fuck is out ? " " I was at a friends ! ok ? can we stop talking about it ? " I refused . " which friend ? "
" Victoria , enough . " he said shaking a little . " which friend !? " I was getting mad . " ELLA'S ! " I pushed him out of my way and ran outside . I didn't know where I was going I just ran , and ran , and ran . I don't really remember what happened next . I heard honking , but everything was black .
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SORRY BAD CHAPTER 😁
I don't really like it . but I hope you guys like the next one . 💗