Life.

Pretty.

I just want to be pretty. That's all I ever wanted, for myself, not for anyone else. Sure it might be nice for someone to find me attractive but, that's besides the point. I just want to look in the mirror and like what I see. Why is that so hard? Oh right, I'm a fat ugly piece of shit. I have done everything I can to be pretty. I've tried makeup, diets...even though they were all unhealthy for my body..., even exercise but nothing worked. I could never manage to be pretty, no matter what I did. Forcing black, blue, and purple colored scars to form all over my body didn't help with that either.  All. Over. I regret every single one honestly. I'm so idiotic, why did I even do that? Why? WHY?!? I just don't even know what to do with myself.