I lost it with the wind

an unexpected meeting

Some days just start and some tremble to start; one often thinks that a life changing day would tremble to begin but this one just began.

Cristina woke up to find Johann snoring next to her. Owen has never snored. Shut up, brain. 

So Owen will move away from Seattle, yet another reason not to go back there. Stop thinking about Owen! Owen who started drinking, Owen who still loved her. Why did Meredith tell her? She hadn't asked her to tell her! Like every evening they phoned. Cristina hates phoning but Meredith is her person, so what...

Without waking Johann she goes to the bathroom. After taking a shower, she stands in front of the mirror pinning up her hair. Slowly she runs her fingers over her neck. Owen loved my neck... what is wrong today? Cristina hasn't thought about Owen since...well, for a long time.

Normally working distracts her from sad thoughts or rather thoughts about Seattle and her person, Meredith. She really misses Meredith and her other person... no, Owen is not her person, not anymore... no, today working in the lab isn't helpful. She needs an OP, a hard one.
No heartsurgery...oh fuck it

She rushes into the emergency room. Nothing interesting...

She hears sirens and goes outside. Johann's already there and snubs a guy who's blocking the drive-up, trying to make way for the ambulance.

"Interesting case, Johann?", she says.

The rear door of the ambulance opens. "Ventricular fibrillation" the woman yells out. She is bent over a bloody thing that once looked like a human being. Interesting indeed.

"Out of the way" Cristina jumps in the ambulance. They have to help that person now, they must not waste time.

"Arterial oxygen saturation falls. We can't do anything for him now" the woman in the ambulance tells Cristina. No please, not today...

Sigh "time of death 9.34am"

With her hands already bloody she looks up to find Owen's eyes. What Owen? No...now she already hallucinates? Maybe it's just Johann... but then she spots Johann next to Owen. It really is Owen. Owen in Zurich...

Cristina steps out of the ambulance. Johann puts his hands on her back.

"It was too late." He leans his head into hers and kisses her. No, don't, not now, not next to Owen!!!

Without leaving her gaze from Owen she pushes Johann away, in a not really gentle way. It's like a stab in her heart to see Owen so... so disappointed. Why is he here? Has he come for her?

"Cristina", Owen whispers. His voice is so full of desire and craving. She can't help but looking at him in astonishment. Cristina gasps.

"Johann, this is Owen, my husband...I mean ex-husband" nervously she looks from Owen to Johann and back go Owen. Nervous? Cristina Yang nervous?

Not knowing she does it Cristina repins up her hair and takes a step towards Owen. She wants so desperately to touch him, to feel him but Johann's indignant voice interrupts her thought which has gotten more and more inappropriate.

"You were married?"

Before she could answer, she heard Owen laughing and saying: "You never told him about us, your pregnancy, our marriage, the time after our marriage?" He gives her a mischievous smile. She tries to pretend to not have noticed it but she can't help but grin. She has missed Owen so badly.

Again Owen leers at her but this time she manages to look away and turn to Johann. "I'm sorry...I didn't tell you and I'm sorry for what I will do next"

Johann doesn't quite understand until Cristina steps away from him and embraces her ex-husband fiercely, then kissing him even more fiercely.