"It's been a while since we last met"
The weight of the water that's carrying my eyes was heavy, that's why it fell gradually. I was here in the park where both of us were meeting in the past.
The guy in front of me was my beau, Artemis. He was curving his lips into a smile that's exposing his dimples. He was still the same person that I knew in the yore. He was still the person I loved the most.
In just a glimpse of the moment, I suddenly recall the fragrant memory of us. Where the two of us were still together. The moment that I didn't give significance to him.
"For you, Eleanor" he was giving me the red rose. He was giving me a small smile while his cheeks were turning red. I accepted it but I didn't say a thing. When he left, I put the rose on the table and left it until it died.
I didn't like him. But I was scared to reject him that's why here I am, enduring him. Well, yes, he's a good person. Many people liked him that's why I can't understand why he chooses me.
He was always too sweet and I don't like that. He was too clingy! Affirmative, he's my type but not his personality. I wanted a boy who's opposite to him.
Weeks passed, his birthday comes. I didn't contact or even call him. I think it was not important if I text him or not. I was just sitting in my bed while looking at the window. It's now summer, this was the time that I started to love him.
My tears continued to fall after reminiscing severything. I regret everything and I wanted to bring back the time, but I can't. Long ago, he was beside me when I was crying. But now, I only have myself. He was the person who is always comforting me.
"How's your family?" I asked while biting my lips so my tears won't fell.
It was hard to accept that he was now pleased with others. I know it was my fault. I am the reason for my sadness. I wanted to burst my tears and madness to others but I have no one to blame.
But even if I was sad, I still respect them. I respect his family. In fact, I'm friends with them.
"They were okay"
"I'm sorry for what I've done in the past. I wanted to go back to the time where both of us were still in love with each other but" my tears were falling continuously, it didn't stop. "But I can't" I smiled at him while giving him back the red rose that he gave me years ago. Yes, I went back to that place to get that.
I missed his beautiful smile. I missed his dimples that really suits him. I missed every bit of him. How I wish we can be together now but I don't want his child to don't have a father. And I don't want to broke his family. Even if I wish for that, I was not sure if he will still accept me.
"I'm happy for you," I said before leaving. He said that the right guy will come to me at the right time. I never thought that even if I broke Artemis heart, he still said that to me.
I learned many lessons because of him. That we should give prominence to every person because we didn't know how long can we be with them. If you love him, then confess. If you didn't love him, then don't give him hope.
In my case, I did wrong. I didn't love him in the past but I agreed to be with his girl. My mindset was sucked at that time. That's why now, I pity myself.
