Lucifer's Queen

Chapter 19

*Erica's pov*

The feeling of not feeling anything at all and your mind refusing to cope up with your current situation making it even more harder to think about something is the most scariest feeling of terror someone could ever experience. And right now I am lost in that dark maze not being able to move a single muscle of my body. His eyes stayed wide open glaring deep into my startled once as those icy lips hovered over my trembling one. The kiss was nothing like anyone could ever imagine or describe. There was no passion, lust, aggression or even hatred and definitely no love. It meant nothing yet in a weird way speak so much that my poor mind is not capable of understanding. This is my first kiss that made me feel numb yet would be carved into my memories forever as that numbness alone made me feel thousands of unfathomable emotions.

I saw his red orbs swirling with a hint of blue in the middle of them fighting the aggressive wave of color that is clouding his orbs. But it was like a a droplet of water in a sea of flames and soon the flame was overtaken turning those orbs into blood red. For the first time my heart refused those cold lips with all its might and yet my mind wanted to feel the coldness of those lips. Replace the cold with the warmth of my own lips. And that's what scared me. Cause this is his way of showing me how easily he can manipulate my brain. Deep down my heart knows that this isn't something I want. Yet that awareness was so small against my clouded mind to make me act. I was paralyzed like a pit of mud in his hand that is willing to let him mold me as he wishes. He is showing me how easily he can dominate me and forced my mind into submission without even braking a sweat if he really wanted to. Whether I am willing or not, I will be always controlled by him. That wasn't my choice. And now he is making me realize it.

"Know your place." He spat and that's when my mind was finally able to realize the missing coldness against now my quivering lips. I searched for his gaze and once again was fully able to realize as the reality slowly starting to strike in that he is standing far from me leaving me there alone to lean on the wall to support my numb limbs. When my lost gaze met those swirling red orbs, like an ice bucket to a heated iron, those color dimmed as his whole face tensed going stiff as a stone. Tears brimmed on the corners of my eyes as I felt my whole body heating up like someone se me on fire. The skin of my neck where his grip was in and my lips started to prickle like someone was pocking me with thousands of tiny needles. Waves of electricity shot through my heart making me breath hard trying to ease the wild beating and the uncomfortable sensation. 

"Leave!" His gaze wasn't no longer on me. He was looking at his lonely throne with an expression that screamed aggression mixed with agony. His hands were balled into a fist tensing the muscles making the veins visible on his skin. I looked at his side to see that Jimin was standing there few steps away from him and that's when realization downed on me that he was the one offering me an escape. An apologetic look crossed over his expression when my tears leaking eyes met his and he mentioned towards the doors, reminding me that I should escape if I don't want to get things nasty that it already is.

I didn't waste a second neither I was bothered to spare a one look at either of them as I bolted out from there pulling those doors wide open with a new found strength that I have never witnessed on me and ran like something wild chasing me. There was. The memory of his lips against mine was chasing my mind and no matter how harder I made my legs move faster, the memories took the upfront of my mind making me escape a strangled sob from my mouth. A bit of relief washed over me when I saw my room getting closer, yet I knew there is no way I can hide from the images on my mind of playing that kiss over and over again in my head like a broken record. 

I was so ready to fall into my bed and curled myself into a ball under the sheet to cry my heart out. Yet all those wishes escaped from the back window when my eyes landed on someone pacing back and forth in my room. Even my nonstop tears freeze at the sight of unwelcomed guessed in my room and when two angry red orbs landed on me, my mind started to set red alarms. It would be an underestimate if I said I forgot all my worries seeing her usual blue orbs shining just as red as those eyes I just escaped from. Now my biggest worry was the person standing right in front of me, staring at me with so much hatred and looking like an angry lioness that ready to pound on her prey.