for you

Untitled Part 9

so im laying in my bed 

my phone is buzzing from all your sweet messages

 messages about a girl who you like and

 dont get me wrong,i want you to be happy 

even if its not with me 

but im here writing this poem instead of replying

 because i cant take it 

it doesnt hurt, honestly its just that i dont feel anything 

you say shes so sweet and nice and so pretty 

and shy but you said those words

 about me too and nothing ever happened

 you said she stayed up late with you because 

you were too afraid to go to sleep because

 your nightmares are back and you dont wanna be alone

 she stayed up late with you, but so did i,

 i just never told you

oh, how many sleepless nights i had becase 

i was checking my phone in case 

you text me you had a nightmare 

in case something happens, and if im asleep

 i wouldnt be there for you 

i would never forgive myself that i left you

all alone but i never did 

you just dont know 

you say she planned this whole kinda date 

but you dont call it that, because youre taking things slow

 but guess what, so did i

 so did i so did i

 i did everything you say she did but 

you still didnt pick me 

so im just laying here 

phones buzzing next to me

 she did everything but

 so did i. 

or didnt i?