He's no longer human for the tainted sorrow

Chapter 16

CONFESSION PART-1

"I..i've never imagined Dazai-san being THIS much weak." Atsushi sighed.
"Why did you think so?" Kunikida asked his younger fellow.
"Like.. Dazai-san is always playing around and doing crazy stuff. Otherwise he is damned scary and serious. He slapped me once. It... was ... terrible." He replied.
"So... what does it have to do with not being able to imagine dazai being weak?" Kunikida asked another question over the previous one.
"Isnt it obvious? Dazai's character is strong and merciless.  He is brave.. he is not even scared of killing himself." Atsushi started explaining the facts.

"You are wrong Atsushi." Kyoka spoke.
"Huh? Wrong? Why?" The weretiger blinked his eyes afew times.
"The very fact that he wants to kill himself proves that he is weak. Now, i dont care if you take him as a coward or being an emotionally sick guy." Kunikida sighed.
"Yeah.. a strong person no matter how much depressed and hopless he becomes, never gives up on his life. He tries to do his best to free himself. He does everything to survive." Yosano clicked her tongue.
"So.. you always knew that dazai is emotionally hurt and weak?" Kenji asked.

"I am his PARTNER kenji!" Kunikida stated the fact. But this comment was never ignored by Chuuya who was sitting there doing nothing but scrolling down his phone reading some article.

Chuuya felt abit bad. He never knew the reason. But the fact that he couldnt say those words instead of kunikida annoyed him.
A low key "tch" escaped his lips.

"So you knew huh?" Atsushi smiled.

"No wonder why i keep an eye on him and save him from his suicidal attempts. I would never admit it but... i waste my time arguing with that bastard just for his own good. It helps dazai to distract his mind and feel abit better. Plus my taunts and kicks knock some sense into his shitty head." Kunikida kept on describing Dazai.

But Chuuya had enough of it. He couldnt believe it. How? How could kunikida know dazai to THIS deep level. They had just spent two years with eachother. And yet this man talks as if he knows every single feeling which dazai feels. Why?

Who does he think he is. Acting as if he knows everything about him. Im the one who is familiar with each and every scar present on dazai's body. I have spent four years with that fish. Right?

I also, kick him, taunt him and everything. Im a good partner aswell right? Right?

Ugh why do i even care about being his good partner. Im not even his partner. Why am i not his partner?

Uh.. but then why am i feeling guilty? I've been treating dazai exactly the way kunikida did. Why am i feeling bad for myself.

D...did my treatment ever proved good for that mackeral? Did my cold words also made him laugh... or no.. they made him hurt?

Fuck.. fuck this fucking world. This dazai is so manipulative. Why is he manipulating me? But then ... why am i allowing myself to be controlled by him?
H...he is just toxic. Yeah.. toxic he is. M..making me feel all guilty for nothing. I hate kunikida. Bastard.

"So... dazai had this side to him aswell." Tanazaki frowned.

"He is such a big ass coward. Its been more than eight years and he has not confessed to his CRUSH yet." Ranpo said inbetween his chunks.

"C..crush? THAT FISH HAS A CRUSH? FOR EIGHT YEARS?" Chuuya screamed on the top of his lungs while bouncing like a gorilla on his sofa.

"Rise and shine baby!" Yosano winked at a rabid chuuya.

"Whoa.. you scared me hatman." Tachihara spoke.

"WHO ON THE EARTH IS HIS CRUSH?" chuuya asked kunikida.