𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐰 {AURALESCENTXREADER}

Chapter 13: I Was In Love With You.

I'm the youngest in my family.

I remember when I was Five. Mom and dad were happily married, and I had friends.

Everything changed when my father started becoming distant and my mother eventually found him in bed with another woman. He left us.

For some stupid reason, mom referred to alcohol.

Even though I was the disappointment of the family, My father favorited me so she took her anger out on me for years. What's worse was when my siblings had a bad day, they would hurt me too.

I lost all my friends at the age of 12, due to their parents being afraid my mom was a bad influence.

When I was in Middle School I met Ashley, she was perfect. I wanted to be just like her. I followed her around and begged her to be my friend. (she bullied me instead lol.)

I switched to a different high school. Then at the age of 17 I had finally saved up enough for an apartment and college.

"I'm leaving, momma." I had said, she sat on the couch, a beer in her hand. "Finally.." she whispered. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough, mom.

Then I met Matthew, I thought if I chased after someone that didn't like me I wouldn't have to worry about getting hurt.

So why did It hurt when I saw him smile at Ashley? Why did It hurt when I said goodbye to him? And why did it hurt to see him again?

I realized the feelings I thought I had finally suppressed were still there. Deep, Deep down. My heart had began beating again.

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Matthews POV:
8 missed calls.
7 new messages.

"The Aliens are gonna win, I just know it." y/n says nervously chewing on the popcorn.

I shut my phone off and throw it to the side. "Dude, robots are way smarter then aliens."

We're laying besides each other on our stomachs, the bed full of snacks. "It's not about intelligence, it's about strength!" her shoulder presses into mine as she reaches for the gummy candies.

The clock now reads 10:27pm.

"Uncle! Auntie!" y/n whines in pain when Max crawls over her back. "I'm not- ouch! your aunt." the seven year old drops down in between us.

"Daddy says your my auntie since you and uncle are married." I make a mental note to smack Kade.

"We're not married. Your dad just likes to tease uncle, doesn't he?" y/n grins at me, I glare at her but when she giggles my look softens.

"But will you get married?" she smiles softly pushing Max's hair out of his eyes. "No, we won't."

"Really? you were the one that said you would marry Matthew." Kade interrupts, he's leaning on the door frame smiling at the scene.

She blushes when I raise a brow at her, "I never said that.."

"Matthews the cutest! I love his hair, and his smile! I would marry your brother!" He mocks in a girly voice. Y/n throws a pillow at him, "Shut up!"

Ba-dump!

"Oh and don't get me started on Matthew!" I shake my head rapidly but he doesn't listen.

"He was always mad or sad but when you have him the gifts? that was the first time he smiled in months."

"Bullshit."

"Whatever you say." Kade turns his attention to the confused kid. "Max, time for bed!"

There's an awkward silence after they leave, I hate it. I want to go back in time, when we would laugh so hard our stomachs hurt.

"Are you feeling okay?"
"Yeah.. I just.. miss us." I mumble.

She stares at me with her lips parted in surprise. "I- I just mean that-" I panic.

"No it's okay, You're right." y/n reassures, "We don't talk the way we used to."

She switches positions so she's laying on her back. My shoulders drop in relief and I follow her lead. "What changed?"

"You got a girlfriend." in a way, she's right. After Ashley everything changed.

"And I was scared." her tone is soft and quiet as she closes her eyes. "Scared of what?"

"I was in love with you." ba-dump! ba-dump!

"I was scared that history would repeat itself."

"Plus, if I told you that it was more then a crush, you would stop being my friend."

"Having you as my friend was enough so I pushed those feelings away." shes half asleep already.

"I'm sorry.." is all I can say. "Me too.." she mumbles before her breathing deepens and her body relaxes.

I grab the covers tucking her in, then I clean up all the mess we made.

I decide that i'll wake her up after the movie ends and lay besides her on top of the covers.

My blinking slows and eventually I let myself fall asleep.

I feel like i'm forgetting something..