Dear Calum (repost from old account)

Dear Calum

Dear Calum ,
It's been 3 months since you left this world and went to heaven. we miss you so much 5SOS isn't the same with out you. Michael turned to drugs and alcohol ,Ashton has been really quite and depressed lately and sadly Luke committed suicide 2 weeks after you did. Ashton wouldn't come out of his room for 3 days . they stopped playing shows because it hurts too much. I get asked lots of questions about what happened. i cant step foot into your room because it brings back memories of that dreadful day. i made Ashton cry yesterday because i called him by your name by accident.
Calum i'm pregnant with twins your twins i was going to tell you the day you died but it was too late by the time i found you you were already gone when i found you i fell to the ground and cried and screamed then the boys ran up stairs. your cousin Becky misses you so much we all do and we love you so much its so hard to let you go. Ashton was diagnosed with cancer yesterday . when no one is home i play your bass and sing but i stop when Ashton gets home from the gym . i can tell when Ashton is home because i can hear his crutches going click clack click clack against the wooden floors. We will care and love you forever. i'm due in two weeks there both boys and i'm going to name them Calum and Luke. Ashton is helping me so much through this pregnancy and your passing.

Love you for ever and always

your girlfriend

Chelsea lusetti.

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