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Siya POV

My whole body felt so hot. I don't know what happening to me. He looking at me constantly. Suddenly I feel like something odd as if my heart my soul belongs to someone. To be frank not to someone but to chumpkin brother Siddharth which I don't want to accept.

'Really' my stupid brain started ranting on me

'Ohh..yes..he always tease me' I complained to whom don't know.

'uff.. you will not change' my brain started usual remark on me for which I rolled my eyes but again slipped into deep thinking looking at him.

I don't know what he thinks of me what feelings he had on me. Even I want to know somewhere in my heart but I don't want to know whatever it is. Maybe because I have my own wish to get succeeded in my life, to lead my life with mom happily. She is enough for me to live. I can't think or do anything without ammu (mom).

'are you giving excuses' my brain started again.

I didn't reply may be the answer is yes which I don't want to accept or argue with anyone not even me.

I know I'm somewhere naive to understand something but when it comes to sid I feel like I know everything and I can understand him more like he knows me well.

I can see the love, admire in his eyes on me when I'm saying about sindhura. His eyes praised me and admire me. Even though he didn't say in words but I can see in his eyes. I know he scared about me with sindhura. So I kept quiet if not him I would have slap them hard that it takes time to recover from shock and my handprints because he won't be there to secure so I need to stop fighting as if I'm arguing with everyone.

Ohh god, he called slapping queen but I didn't mind because I know he is teasing me. But why he need to call me as his all the time it gives me some unknown feelings but somewhere I felt happy.

I don't want to have any relationship I don't believe all this. I have seen one of my friend in relation but ended up in breaking her heart.

'But your friend chumpkin is in love for long na she is happy na' my brain said

'He is her relative. So it worked' I said rolling my eyes

'Ohh, so you don't like when sid is near you' my brain mocked me back.

'Don't say you didn't liked him when he is near you' my brain said as if challenging me

'Will you keep your mouth shut. Remember you are mine so support me not him. Always taking his side' I shouted

For a brief second I looked at him. He is looking at me with different emotions. I don't know what it is. He is carrying so many emotions and I feel like I'm swimming in pool of emotions of sid.

So I decided to not give any chance to my heart or my mind to get hurt and moreover I'm not the one people think. I'm more like myself. Even my tenth is co-education I don't know even how many boys are there in our class. I never feel to know atleast that when I realised I'm different and not love relationship type.

But if my life is with him all well I'm ready to accept it. Infact I will be one of the happiest person. Yes even I don't agree I accept myself that I have some feelings on him

So I decided to stay away from him to not get hurt. But don't know what my life for me and I don't want to try new things or feelings atleast for some days. So I immediately packed my stuff to stay away and to shut my feelings.

"Fine, I will leave. I need to go" I said and stood up packing all my stuff in bag

"Wait, may be you are right and I will think in that way but you be careful as I can't trust sindhura" sid said in concern and worry can be seen in his eyes.