Alone

C H A P T E R 5

"I'm craving wine" i blurred and we laughed. It's been a week since my party and the kissing thing. It's safe to say things are back to normal with my friends. Brian has started to be off ever since the party.

He glares at Ryder whenever I'm with him, he's overreacts, he spends less time with me heck someday we don't walk home together, he can ignore me and it sucks. I haven't tried to talk to him or anything cause I'm still pissed that he forgot my birthday.

I'm waiting for him to apologise and I feel like I'm waiting for the rain in winter. Pointless. Right now I'm hanging out with Ryder and Jess in my living room. Mom came home an hour ago and told us to not get too loud.

She works as an accountant and therefore I can understand when she needs her peace and quite just to relax. "Why don't we just go and buy one.? My ass hurts from sitting down" Jess says and we chuckle.

After going to the store to buy wine and snacks we came back and started drinking. Unfortunately Ryder had to go home to look after his baby sister Claire since it's date-night for their parents.

It's just me, jess and my wine right now. "Have you talked to him?" Jess ask and i sigh. "Nope. I'm still waiting for him to apologise" i said taking a sip of the red wine. She sighed.

"Mel you're my bestfriend and i can see this thing is hurting you. Why don't you just be the bigger person and reach out? From what you told us about him looking at you with rage and anger, i think he's also waiting for you to apologise. He might think you're cheating on him With Ryder judging by the death glare he sends him every now and then.. Relationships are about compromising even when you're right. It's not all rainbow and butterflies. If you love him the way you claim you do, then reach out."she says and I take her words into consideration.

" I still hate his guts by the way "she says and we laugh." Thank you "i say and stand up to walk to his house." Where are you going? "she ask confused." I'm going to apologise "i say and she nods." I'll be finishing the wine in the meantime"

It's late but i don't care. It's not like he live far, he's just next-door. I go over and knock. I start fiddling with my fingers thinking of what to say to him. The door opens revealing Brian shirtless. He looks confused. "Baby girl... Are you okay?" he asks still confused.

I furrow my brows as a panicking look comes but he's good at hiding I wouldn't have noticed. I was in my mind until he snapped me out. "You should go home.. Its late" he said trying to make me go. "I want to apologise.. Brian what's going on?"

I ask slightly having a bad feeling. "Nothing. I forgive you. now go home.. Its cold outside"

"Why don't you let me in then since its cold" i ask.

"Goddammit Mellisa just go home"

he raised his voice and I flinch. He never raised his voice with him. I suddenly regret coming here to apologise. "I don't know what wrong with you but I'm sorry" i say in the verge of crying.

I look at him and his eyes soften up. "Look I'm -"

"Rian what's taking long, I'm getting cold" a girls voice comes from inside and I hear him curse under bi's breath. My eyes widened and I choke. Footsteps comes and later Stacey comes up wearing nothing but his shirt.

"Ooops" she says and smirk at me.

"Mellisa it's not what it looks like" he says trying to touch me but I shift. "So it doesn't look like you were having sex or whatever with someone you told me to not worry about?" i ask now pissed at him.

"Well you're smarter than you look" Stacey says still smirking and Brian just stands there looking speechless. "Exactly my point.. You know what Fuck you Brian" i say and turn to leave but he grabs my arms with force and I wince.

"You don't get to walk away missy. Don't talk to me like that" he says with a cold-emotionless voice. His look turn icy just like when he's about to fights. "Ouch-you're hurting me" i wince and tears fall. Stacey freeze until she start to drag Brian away from me.

"Rian let her go. Let's get back to our session." she smirks at me as she says the last word. I just stand there shocked by what is happening. "I hate you!!" i scream at him and start walking away. "Walk away. Go cry to your little boyfriend Ryder" he says before shutting the door his voice filled with bitterness.

I ran into the house tears falling down. As soon as Jess saw me, she welcomed me in a hug. We stayed quite with nothing but my sobs filling in the silence. She rubbed my back, saying soothing words.

After a while i stopped crying and sighed. "Where's my wine?" i said and Jess chuckled. She pointed at the coffee table and i sighed. I took the glass, poured it to its rim and drank all of it in one go. When I looked back at Jess, amusement was in her eyes.

"I like this Mel better" she said and I chuckled. "Still up for cutting Brian's balls and feeding them to him?" i asked with a raised brow and she instantly left and came back with a knife. "Let me call Ryder and inform him about the basement" she said.

She pulled out her phone and I launched out in laughter. She looked like my mom waiting for Sky to come back and give her a whopping. "You look like my mom" i said after sobering up and she frowned with her the a smile.

"Wanna talk about what happened?" she asked cautiously trying not to hurt me or anything. I sighed and patted at the next spot at the sofa. Moments after she sat down, the door busted open revealing Ryder with a tub of peanut butter.

"Where's Claire?" i asked him narrowing my eyes at him. "Sleeping with Mr turtle" he said casually sitting at the rag next to me. "How did you know?" i ask again looking at him and Jess. "I sensed something was wrong. My nose was tingly" he said casually and I laughed. Both Jess and I. "The dumbest thing I've heard from you so far" Jess said and he gave her a sheepish smile.

I took a breath in and spiled the words. "Brian is cheating on me.." I added a dramatic pause just for to get the gasp out of them ".. With Smelly Stacey" i said getting a pang at the pit of my stomach. The reaction from was definitely not what I expected heck it wasn't even close.

They both looked at each other and looked back at me with mischief in their eyes. "Don't you even dare." i said lifting my spoon as they both tackled me and started ticking me. I laughed so hard I farted, causing them to fall into laughter too.

"I hate you guys" i said putting a spoon full of peanut butter in my mouth. "We love you too" they both said still recovering from laughing. "Look shortstuff, I'm sorry you had to go through that, we're here for you. Always. You deserve way more than what you're getting right now. I know you love him but he's not worth all the pain you're going through.."

"You're right Morris. I do love him and i will endure any pain for him. I know I may seem dumb for not wanting to be a break up with him even after the way he treated me but he's not perfect. No one is."i said licking the spoon.

I look at them and their eyes looked like they were gonna jump out of their socket. I don't blame them though. A sane person would break up With Brian with a blink of an eye but I'm not sane. I love him and I don't want to lose him in anyway.

I mean, i am strong and I can handle the pain, we're going to get through this together. Him and I.

"Umm. Jess is she drunk? "

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