Alone

C H A P T E R 13

My eyes are puffy and look swallon, my head is killing me, I have tears stains on my face and I don't have energy. My body hurts, everything hurts.

It's Monday and I'm currently in the ladies toilets. I saw Ryder today and he just passed me like I wasn't there. Jess on the other hands can't even look at me for more that a minute and whenever she looks at me, she shakes her head, disappointment in her eyes.

Brian on the other hand is still giving me the cold shoulder, on a few occasions, his group made a few comments about how they want to taste me or how the wake up from having a sexy dream about me.

Justin just looks at me with pity everytime and a frown. It's lunch and people are in the cafeteria. I splash water on my face to remove the tears stains and the puffy eyes.

After doing so for some minutes, I finally get the results I was looking for the leave. I walk into the cafeteria and everyone heads turns to me and i freeze. They starts to mummer and whsiper still looking at me and I start to walk to take my lunch.

When I take my lunch and walk to my regular table, Jess offeres me a small sad smile and Ryder stands up to leave but I stop him. "It's fine. I can leave" i say and walk away. There are no tables or spaces left so I go outside.

The football teams are playing on the fields and I walk to a small bench. I poke my food and sigh. A tear falls and I quickly wipe it away. I pushed everyone away. While I'm poking my food, Brian stands in front of me and i smile.

When I look at his face, the smile drops.

"I'm breaking up with you. It's over" he says leaving me without even an explanation. The tray falls and some people turn their attention to me. My mouth is agape and my vision blurry.

I struggle to breathed, gasping for air. I had no one to help, no shoulder to cry on. I've lost my best friends cause of a guy who just dumped me.

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"Hey" I snap out of my thoughts to see Justin.

"Hey" I say my voice coming out hoarse. He hands me a tissue and I look at him confused.

"You're crying" he says slowly with a frown and I touch my face, feeling the dampness.

I take the tissue and wipe my tears away. I mumble a small 'thank you'. He takes a sit next to me and I zone out again.

What did I do to deserve this? I've never treated someone poorly but I get this. Everyone turned on me all cause of a boy.

I'm going through some much pain because of one boy. He lied to me so many times, blinded me.

"Look, I'm sorry for what he did to you. I'm sorry." he says snapping me out of my thoughts again.

I just wanna be alone. I stood up and left him alone. I know he's feeling guilty and trying to apologise for his best friend but right now I just wanna be alone.

He's probably looking at me like I've grown heads now. School isn't over until half four and nowit's half one. I start walking back home. Mom doesn't come home until five so she won't know a thing. I did come to school, I just left early.

When I got home I changed into a hoodie and not bother to wear pants. I cried for hours not just for Brian but for everything. I cried so many times it doesn't hurt anymore.

Crying has already became a regular to my eyes. I still don't have a phone. Mom doesn't know cause I don't usually call her and same for her. I finished a bucket of ice cream within less that two hours.

My room was dark, curtains and window were closed, so was the door. I sat on my bed with my laptop on my lap and snacks besides me. I watched Netflix but every show made me cry.

My bedroom door busted open, showing Jess with a bottle of red wine and two glasses in her hands with a small smile. I sighed, closing my laptop.

"Hey" she says walking to me and just seeing her here make me crack. A tear falls and she rushes on the bed and hugged me while I cried silently. I missed her so much.

"I'm here for you" she says rubbing my back. When I sobered up, we pulled away. She gave me a smile and I gave her a small smile back.

"Sooo, school are closing on Wednesday" she says with enthusiasm, reminding me cause I totally forgot. "Sooo the class is planning a trip to Californie for five days" she says and I nod for her to continue.

"I thought maybe we should go. You know, get away from everything and your sister for a while" she says raising her brow in suggestion, sipping on wine.

If it's planned by our class then, Brian is most definitely gonna be there and I don't want to see him nor his friends. I sip on my wine and refuse. "Nah. I think I'll be fine in my room for the holidays." I say and she sighs.

"C'mon Mel, I know you don't want to talk about it and probably think he's gonna be there but Mel.." she says trying to convince me to come.

"but what?" i say waiting for her to continue.

"but.. But.. C'mon Mel we can have so much fun together. I miss hanging out with you" she says the last part making me sigh. I really have been a bad friend so maybe I can do this for her. To spend time again with her again.

She holds my hands squizing them tights as she pleads with me. "Alright fine" I finally say giving in.

"This is gonna be so much fun" she says and I sigh. I'm not looking forward to the trip.

"What about the payments?" i ask knowing very well mom won't give me any money to pay for a hotel or whatever.

"Covered. All we need to do is show up at school on Thursday with our bags, they'll be cars picking us up" she says and I narrow my eyes at her.

"Wait, who came up with the idea and who's paying?" i ask curiose. I mean that's gonna leave a huge hole in someone's pocket.

"Brandon and Kammy" she says and I nod in understanding. I mean the twins family is loaded. Their father being the owner of twenty five franchises and mother being a well-known lawyer in the province.

"We need to go shopping though. There's no way I'm letting you go down there with old clothes" she says looking at my wardrobe and I let out a small chuckle looking at her face.

This is the first time my mouth let out a sound other than sobbing, groaning and a sigh. "Thank you" I say sipping my wine.

"Don't worry. I got you" she says jumping on the bed to give me a hug.
"Shoot, I gotta go.. I kidda skipped school and Johnny's gonna pick me up at school" she says rushing to put her shoes on and I laugh.

"Just tell him to pick you up here. He doesn't know what time school ends" I say amused looking at her.

"you're right. He never paid attention to at closing time. He always left an hour before" she says relaxing on my bed. She picks her phone up and talk to her brother putting him on speaker

"Johnny I'm at Mel's house"

"Lizzy I'm just parking at school. C'mon man" he groans

"Stop calling me Lizzy. Just come here. I've been waiting for you for hours" she saying smirking at me and i muffle a laughter

"You serious? I thought school is out in 15 minutes "

"it was out thirty minutes ago dimwit. I'm telling dad if you're not here in 10 minutes" she says deadpanting

"She not joking Johnny" i say and laugh hearing him curse under his breath.

"Alright fine. I'll be there in 5.. Wait outside. I'm not gonna wait for you" he says hanging up. When he gets here, Jess gives me forehead kiss before heading out.

"Tomorrow, shopping" she says walking out and I sigh.

Looks like I'll be spending my holidays in Californie with everyone that made me cry except for one, which I'll be seeing all my life.

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