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Bad Advice

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Hello!! The pain i feel from thinking that Tubbo could have banished Tommy because he kept trying to pick fights and cause war and stuff (based off dreams choices being 1:Banish Tommy or 2:Start a war). How many times did they exchange those words that we all know and love. How many times did they say:

"It's you and me forever, right?"
"Yeah, it's always been me and you, from the beginning, and it always will be."

And now not anymore and it's really sad yes they both have good reasons on each side but still!!!

Anyway, Today's story is a scene after the banishing, again irl AU. Tommy has just been banished and Badboyhalo and Skeppy have just taken Tommy in after he was knocked out by a stun arrow (not sharp but enough to cause loss of consciousness) while running to the border.

Again, no shipping in this chapter, as you can tell I don't write much ship content though I have my favored ships. I do not ship the minors ever or anyone else who says they're uncomfortable with it but I feel the need to clarify because the friendships and families that I write are very close because that's the way they all come off to me, I felt like I needed to clarify that.

This one is kind of long, I'm sorry about that!

TW: Arrows, Fever, Head injuries, partial loss of relationships, Hallucinations, guilt, anxiety
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Tommy groggily opened his eyes. His head hurt. A throbbing pain that didn't go away.

Where am I? How did I get here? Where's Tub- Oh.

Tommy scanned his surroundings for any sign of threat. Only then did he realize that an ice pack lay waiting for him on a side table next to the cushiony bed he lay in.

Tommy thought hard trying to remember what happened but his memory was hazy. He remembered an argument with Tubbo. He vaguely remembered the words Probation and Banished. Nothing else came to him. His memory was a gaping black hole. He felt a similar emptiness in his chest.

What? Why- what is this? A small nagging feeling in the back of his head told him it's what happens when you lose something you love, or something you love is broken. But he hadn't felt this before when he was trying to get the discs back. He felt an overwhelming sense of drive, a reason to keep going. But now he just felt weak and empty.

He hadn't really loved anyone. That is such a strong word. Love. It means so many things. Yeah he felt a higher fondness towards some people. But he never thought he loved anyone. There was Techno, Wilbur and Philza. They were all super close and they were family, but even so Tommy didn't think love was a word consistent with them. Maybe.

There was also Tubbo. Tommy always felt closer to Tubbo. He was like the brother he never had. Philza was always working with Wilbur who was trying to sort his own mind out. That ended in his own self destruction. Wilbur was almost as closed off as Technoblade. Techno was never home, never with anyone. Tommy knew Techno felt a certain affinity to him, but Techno never loved anyone. He was all discipline. But Tubbo always spent time with him. He was like the brother that Tommy never had present. Tubbo was his best friend. But he hadn't lost him. He was still there, right?

Tommy recalled a word that Wilbur had taught him one day, when he emerged from his room to come grab some food.

"Philia, platonic love. Brotherly love. Friendship. Philia. Philia. Philia." Wilbur murmured. He never looked up at Tommy or even said his name, but Tommy could hear him clearly.

He thought about the word, the meaning. He decided maybe that he did love Tubbo in a brotherly way. In the way that you see your closest friends. A usually unconditional type pure love. Yeah, he assumed that was fair. He loved Tubbo because he was his best friend and his brother. Philia. He was there more than his own father, who tried but still failed.