Torn Between Two

2: Why Did I Actually Cry?

A/N:

Yo hi guys! Like the story so far? Well I am, hope you are too~ Poor Jaeun, I pity her here. More like, I pity myself. Huhuhu :'< Please vote and comment!

-LoveStarHyerin

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Jaeun's POV

Once I laid a foot inside the Class A section, I scanned my surroundings. I thought the Class A section was for smart and diligent kids? Why is everyone all running around and chit chatting? Wow... This is going to be my classroom for the whole school year 2013-2014, this is going to be hell.

I don't see Eiseo yet, and I see Leia.. chatting with Eoryung and Aei-hyong. Eoryung and I aren't really close, and I actually thought of her as a badass girl. She was always like that since second year. Leia is like my half cousin, well, I call her my half cousin. I'm not awkward with her, but I am with Eoryung.

Maybe I shouldn't barge in with them yet. I spotted a seat at the back, just what I wanted. I went there but Jensu, my not so close friend and all time Queen Bee, interrupted me.

"Eoryung is sitting here." She said and rolled her eyes. Ugh, just like last year Jen. Always a bitch.

I ignored her and sighed, sitting at the front seat instead, with this new girl. Ugh, she's so quiet, I must visit the other section to see Shin Ah later. I'll wait for Eiseo first.

Why was she late on the first day of school? Wait. Isn't she always late? Hohoho... Being alone wasn't my style, and if I'm too alone, I cry. That's what's the hard part of me, I always cry when I'm too alone. When I'm being teased by everyone and being neglected. Ugh, I hate this feeling.

Maybe I should just visit Shin Ah now.

I went out of the room, I left my bag inside to reserve my seat. The other section was more rowdy than I expected. I couldn't see any of my friends there. But then, I suddenly have this feeling of being alone... forever.

Tears welled up in my eyes, and I can see Shin Ah far away from the classroom. Sooner, she came to me and greeted me with a smile.

"Annyeong Jaeu--" She was cut of greeting me because I already hugged her, and the tears released from my eyes. I could feel that she was patting my back and Ah Son, my friend since High School, was also stopping me from crying and asking me who had fought with me.

But there's no one who fought with me Ah Son, I fought with myself. I fought with my dumb idiotic self. I mean, why the heck am I crying on the first day of Junior High? It's no big deal right? But why am I suddenly like this? I feel alone.

"Tell me Eun, who fought with you? I'll kick their asses!" Shin Ah said, trying to calm me down in a corner. I was already coughing madly and hiccuping. Nobody fought with me Shin Ah, I just want to transfer classrooms.

"No-Nobody di-did. B-but.. I wa-want to t-transf-fer cla-class-ses wi-with you-u guyss.." I muttered quietly, ashamed of myself. How can I be this selfish just to be with Shin Ah? I must go on my own. But I really can't.

Usually, I'm the happy girl, but when I'm alone, I change into an introvert.

"Eun, you know you can't do that. Sajangnim already arranged the classes and it was already final." Ah Son said, her mother is a staff here, so she really knows what's going on. But I want to! I want to!

"Ah Son! Shin Ah! The teacher is already here!" Someone who I do not know, called the two.

"Eun, we have to go now. Take care okay?" Shin Ah said and gave me a last hug, Ah Son also hugged me and they went in their classroom. I got news that their teacher was much of a strict guy.

I went down the second floor, trying to find Sajangnim. I want to change classrooms and I will change classrooms no matter what.

Tears were sliding down my cheeks and I was hiccuping from minute to minute. Students were looking at me weirdly but I don't care, I want to change classrooms.

I found Sajangnim near the Multi Purpose Hall, checking the bulletin board. I walked near him and to my surprise, he really noticed me.

"Oh! What happened to you dear?" He asked as he held my shoulder, worry etched on his face.

"Sa-Sajangnim, I-I wan-want to c-change cl-classro-rooms." I said to him truthfully and got my handkercheif out, wiping my tears but they still kept on falling.

"Dear, why don't you go and try your new classroom out? Wait for the teacher and bring things out in a new way?" He said to me, trying to cheer me up and make me go back to my classroom.

"N-No, I-I rea-really want t-to chan-nge clas-srooms." I am a stubborn child and I will not go until I get to change classrooms.

"I can't understand you dear. Why don't you take a deep breath and let's sit here ne?" He said and brought me to a yellow swing. I took two deep breaths and tried to clam myself down.

"Now tell me, what's the problem with your classroom dear?" He asked me as he adjusted his glasses.

"I don't h-have any fr-friends there at a-all. They kept ig-ignoring me and all m-my friendss are at t-the other classro-om." I said and sighed, and then hiccuped.

"You know, a new school year means new friends! Aren't you happy to have new friends? Just try to sit on your seat and listen to the teacher." He explained. "Then later on, you'll be friends with everybody. Dear, it's not just about learning, you should also have friends with you."

I just don't get it. I feel lonely and neglected.

"I'll t-try Sajangnim. But i-if I can't take it, will y-you transfer m-me?" I asked like a little child.

"Yes of course dear. Now go back to your classroom, maybe your teacher is already there." He said and we both stood up, going to the opposite directions.

The thought that I talked to Sajangnim relieved me, but having the world neglecting me will forever haunt me. Tears fell again and I can't help but to stop walking, try to take a deep breath and relax myself.

Once I got a hold myself, I continued my journey to hell.

Why did I actually cry?

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A/N:

Poor Eun. All of them have these nicknames ne? Jaeun, Eun. Aeri, Ae. Mikyung, Yung. Eiseo, Ei. It will be either the start of their names or last! Please vote and comment!

-LoveStarHyerin