The Last Of Us

THE LAST OF US

LISA

Sa buhay natin may mga tao talagang akala natin ay parang wala lang. Mga taong akala natin walang magiging epekto sa atin. Mga taong hindi mo inaakalang may magiging papel sa pagkatao at sa bawat pahina ng buhay natin. Ito yung mga taong bigla bigla na lang darating at magiging importante para sa atin pero iiwan ka rin lang sa bandang huli.

Isa ako sa mga taong akala ko hindi ako makakakilala ng ganung klase ng tao sa mundo at akala ko wala siyang magiging ambag sa buhay ko noon at kung anong meron ako ngayon. I am happy with the life I have before. A simple student in our university and well-known for being a member of the student council.

But I didn't know that the person I am with all the time na nagkakaroon ng kada groupings and activities inside our room ay magugustuhan ko ng biglaan ng hindi ko nalalaman.

And I remember the day when my eyes landed on her. It was unexpected but I remember how my world became slow mo that day. Hindi ako naniniwala sa kataga na "LOVE AT FIRST" but damn it. Cupid is shot me so hard and I was fell for her. Really really hard.

You are wearing your blue blouse and has a print of captain America logo, ripped jeans and your nike black rubber shoes. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganun ang naging epekto mo sa akin. And I really hate you with that effect that I had received and felt.

Days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months I know that there is something happening to me really bad. And I keep myself busy and trying not to entertain with it pero bakit sa tuwing gusto kong hindi mapalapit sayo't mapalayo ay gumagawa naman ng paraan ang tadhana para paglapitin tayo. It's funny right.

Then a problem arised happened to me. My one and only best friend leave me one day. I was devastated and heartbroken that time. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nito iniwan ng walang dahilan. I keep on asking myself why? And most of my friend is comforting me every day had passed. I also tried to end my life before dahil pakiramdam ko wala ng dahilan para mabuhay pa. It is suck right? Tatapusin ko ang buhay ko dahil lang sa iniwan ako ng matalik kong kaibigan? HAHAHA.

But that is not the real reason why I want to end my life. I was stressed, pressured and dealing with my anxiety. Sumasabay pa ang mga pagkukumpara sa akin ng Daddy ko sa ibang tao. Yeah, I am a honor student. A consistent honor student since my elementary days. My dad keep on pushing me down na kung saan nagiging mahina na rin ang fighting spirit ko sa pag-aaral.

Nakakasawa na rin kasi. I am trying my best to stay on the honor list pero kapag nakakakuha ako ng mababa score or what. Nandiyan na ang mga negative words mula kay Daddy. Walang problema kay Mommy she is supportive to me since then but my father was the problem. It was tough and hard. Especially, when the person I am with during my childhood just leave me in a glimpse.

That's the time I forget my feelings for you. Yeah, I like you the day when my world turned into slow motion and my heart beats so weird. I also have a photo of you na gustong-gusto ko. It was saved on my phone. Ngunit hindi ko akalaing you have sent me a message that makes me excited and become nervous at the same time. Kagagaling ko noon sa campus dahil nagkaroon kami ng meeting with my co-officer in the organization. Noong una hindi ko pinansin ang message mo because it was a unknown number lalo na at hindi naman ako palasagot ng mga ganung klaseng numero. But I was curious and I read the message that I had received from you.

"Hi Lisa. It's me Jennie."

It was a simple message pero grabe ang epekto nito sa akin. Then that night lumabas pa ako ng bahay para magpaload at mareplayan ka. Hindi ko din akalain na iyon na pala ang simula na magiging close tayo sa isa't-isa. How funny is it. We were strangers back then but were friends now and I am happy. Napag-alaman kong kinuha mo pala ang number ko sa mga kaibigan kong malalakas ang trip at ibinigay naman nila agad sayo.