I've Lost My Mind

Chapter 05

"Uhh Maui?" I asked. My name is Freesia. Maui.. That's what he's looking for right? The man a while ago?

"A-ah Haha! Anak wala yon! She meant Freesia! Diba Max?" my mom awkwardly said.

"Uhh no. But if that's what you want then okay." she said coolly.

My mom awkwardly glanced at me while I looked at her with questioning eyes. What did she mean by Maui? Is that my real name? Am I who the man was looking for?

"Sige na. Doon na kami ni Freesia. Kumuha ka nalang ng food mo doon bye." my mom said and pulled me towards other guests.

Maybe after 2 or 3 hours basta after eating, the emcee announced the business plans that will be happening this year. And how they will incorporate me there. They all agreed for me to be their "endorser" of a product? I don't know but that's what I heard. I'm not really good at doing business things it's always Sheina who does this for me.

Maya-maya the emcee announced that they could all go home na 'cause it's late and we all were really exhausted. Lalo na kami ni mom because we've been entertaining guests here and there. I just wanna lay on my bed and sleep after this. I've got a life to solve and some stuff I need to think about.. I really need to rest.

And the moment I have been waiting for, the last guest left and the emcee already bid goodbye. The people in charge of catering were fixing the tables and our helpers were there to clean the messy spots. Raine, Gave, and Gab already went to their houses. It's been a while too since they went back to the Philippines. Although bumibisita naman sila every year anytime they want, it's still hard to be a far from their family to work in L.A.

As for me, nasanay akong mag-isa, I didn't remember anything so what's the difference? Nang gumising ako, we flew right away to L.A. for my career. I didn't even know if I really liked the career I was going to pursue, but I just ended up doing it anyways and with the help of time, I started to enjoy what I was doing as I develop to become a better model. I'm not a supermodel yet, but I will be, one day.

I did my skincare routine again, and luckily wala na 'kong dark circles. That would be a nightmare if it stayed there. I applied my cleansing soap massaged my face for a good minute and rinsed it off with water.

I looked up to the sky where the moon shined as bright as my tears. I was sitting alone at the balcony. Alone. Without someone to lean on.

It was always like this. I always had to endure the pain by myself, silently, without anyone knowing.

I checked my phone only to see me, a desperate lady, begging for someone's time and love.

To: Ely <3
Happy Anniversary love!

To: Ely <3
'Di mo ba 'ko su-surprise? Anniversary natin ha :(

To: Ely <3
Hey, can I go there? Are you busy love?

To: Ely <3
Elyyy!!! Where u na bb? 'Di mo talaga ako su-surprise? Like before? :(

To: Ely <3
Ako nalang punta dyan please? Pwede?

To: Ely <3
Huy do u have another bb na? :((

To: Ely <3
Hey I love you :( I'm worried, where are you?

To: Ely <3
Kahit isang reply lang? Kahit 'yun na anniversary gift mo please :(

To: Ely <3
'Di mo na ba 'ko love? :( You don't want me anymore? :((

I put down my phone as I sent the last message. Ganon ba kahirap magreply? He's making me worried.

I wiped my tears as I stood up to get my gift for him na bracelet. I went outside to go get the car kahit 'di ako gaano murunong magdrive. It's 10 pm na and still I received no reply. Mag-eend na ang anniversary namin. He never treated me like this.

Nakadag-dag pa sa mga nararamdaman 'ko ngayon ang nabalitaan 'kong girlfriend ni Ely. It was all over the news. Even my friends told me about it. I don't want my parents to know about this kundi ay papalayuin nila ako sa kanya, I can't handle being away from him. I didn't want to think na he's cheating on me, maybe it's just... rumors.

To: my bestfriend :)
Where's Ely? He's not replying :( Please tell me

From: my bestfriend :)
Why? Anong balak mo? 'Di mo ba nakita ang news?

To: my bestfriend :)
Nakita. But it might be fake, I know he's not like that. He would never cheat on me.

From: my bestfriend :)
'Wag kang magpaka-tanga. You're better than that Freesia!

To: my bestfriend :)
I know him.

From: my bestfriend :)
Stop acting like you know him better than me. Alam mong mas nauna 'ko syang nakilala. I've been his bestfriend since we were kids. At ikaw? Sumisingit ka lang. Nagustuhan ka lang nya but that doesn't mean you're better than me now. Know your place.

To: my bestfriend :)
What do you mean? You were never like this! I know my place. I'm his girlfriend. What's happening to you?! Dati pa ay alam mong bestfriend ka lang niya. And because of that naging bestfriend din kita! Because I love everyone he treasures at kasama ka doon. Kaibigan ka diba?

I struggled to open the car because of my hand that was shaking. Hindi sya ganito noon. Does she like Ely? What?! She was.. Never like this. Alam 'kong may nangyayari, 'di lang niya sinasabi.

I started the engine as I try to calm down. I drove as fast as I could without knowing where I was heading to. I saw a hint of red light flashing from far away but I didn't stop, I was out of my mind. I was losing control.

I still went to step on the pedal, I didn't care anymore. I wanted to talk about this.

Maybe someday, or some other time, where we both live again I hope we end up together again. I hope we cross paths, even if it breaks my heart, I still will gladly accept it.

It's true that when you're in the verge of death, all the memories from the past will flash before your eyes, may it be good or bad. I enjoyed it, the life that I had.

As I crossed the red light, a glow flashed before my eyes. Tears streamed down my face as I realized,

Maybe there's no tomorrow.

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I enjoy life because of you! Thank you for reading! It means a lot to give appreciation to my work. Again, I am not a professional so expect a lot of errors, I'm sorry but I tried my best :) I love u and I appreciate you <3 Enjoy life, don't stress yourself bb :)

xoxo,
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