The Warmth Of My Ice

The Girl In Slumber

I was in deep slumber dreaming in an ice cream world full off vanilla, living my life with solitude whilst licking the ice cream in my index finger.. no it is  more on succking the forever ice cream!...

Hayyy... I LOVE THIS WORLD!

I was about to have my first dump when...

"Maria Rosetta Sy!!! DIOS MIYO! HINDI ITO KWARTO MO! HALA
LABAS AT DUMIRETSO SA GUIDANCE OFFICE!!!"

Darn, professor marcaida  always come at the very right moment, this life's shit and always  been the  same, I forgot I should have skip Wednesday it's her funeral, I should went somewhere far from this 4 eyed cocoon,

I suddenly stand still in half close eye get my things at mabilis na umalis I don't give a damn kung sino ang nasa room o kung may kaklase ba ako, they doesn't count me in so do I.

I walk fast and went straight to the exit gate, I hold my stomach and make a face na parang may masakit na dinaramdam. Oh the guard was my mom's ex, he suddenly notice and let me pass without further ado.

Good job Eric.

Dali Dali akong pumunta sa tambayan ko, count me as class-skipper I don't mind. I really dislike ma'am marcaida besides she know my family standing. I bet her angry looks is a decoy.

I ordered burger fries and vanilla ice cream. Pancake house is one of my top place, pero hindi pancake ang order ko ironic isn't it? laging ice cream at burger, wala lang pancakes are like heated dough lol.I dislike it.
I start to dig in my food, have a mouthful of ice cream when a guy at my age I think splash his coffee in my table.

Great, fantastic, wonderful, marvelous!!....

"Ohh what the hell! " - I abruptly shout

My eyes are sharp as dagger and I shoot my gaze directly at this tall disrespectful cunt.

He never said anything, he just stare at me with his poker and annoyed face.

Fuck him and his whole goddamn existence. I'm so fcking pissed.

I wipe myself with tissue, he is just starring when he realize he can't do anything. He bids "sorry" then throw the now spilled coffee in the thrash bin and straightly exit the pancake house.

Wala akong magawa parang hindi ko araw ngayon,bad things happen all over. I head back to my car slam my door and closed my eyes.

And then it hit me...
It's November 16, the day he'd left.
It's been 5 years and his smiling face was still fresh in my mind the bitter sweet moment and right now I'm at the right place where he exactly left.

The rain pour just as my tears begun to follow....

Brother, I've missed you. Where can I find you?

I wake up with the thuds of rain dripping on my car's roof. I love the sound of pouring rain. I waited til it gets lighter then start my engine. I notice the red tinted raptor was still on the same place before I took my long nap. Perhaps the owner's working nearby and decided to parked the car throughout the day. NEVERMIND who give a damn of who's who? I maneuver my car and went to Venom's Bar, I need some booze. I can't continue living without forgetting this day. My brother's death Anniversary. I wanted to visit him but I don't have the guts to face him with my state of mind. Even though he's not here anymore I still feel like he's going to be mad at me for ruining my happy era life. I altered myself from being soft to stone-cold person, it doesn't make sense for me anymore. People come and go like him. Why bother to creatively live your life?